Hi Shell,

I will enjoy the evening with family as well, so I am not waiting for an answer.

I wish you a great 'changing of the years' as well and all the best for next year.

Love,
Nils

Hi Shell,

Here it comes...

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? how about self, is there anything that is separate from everything else?
There is no 'me' in reality, only in thought, not in form or shape. There never was. There is no self either. There ...

Hi Shell,

Wow. Lots of interesting topics in your post that bring up new questions.

Just a practical question that would clarify: does text in green mean something like "good point" and red "look again"?

Secondly, stay open to the DE that you have had that experiencing what you call "life" is ...

Hi Shell,

You sure get to work early!
I really appreciate you doing this. You seem quite busy.

Do you directly see that memories are also just thoughts of a non-existant past that itself is no longer "real"? Remember, we are not seeking for a thoughtless or memory-less state.
What comes up when ...

Hi Shell,

Nils, would you take time to read through the following...and do the exercises as instructed. Dont rush through the read. Maybe a focused few times through. The intention is that it may help you further to see directly that there really is no "doer" or "controller"...and that the body ...

Hi Shell,

Sorry by the way that I was reading the Enlightening quotes. I agreed not to do 'other' stuff. But they helped me to do your exercises better since they say exactly the same things in slightly different ways.

But I am still 100% focussed on the process with you.

With love,
Nils

Hi Shell,

Don't you sleep?! I was awake too, actually writing down some insights I had while reading the Enlightening quotes app.

I did the (very simple) exercise of moving my hand to left and right and had the following succession of insights:

I cannot SEE or FEEL a self moving the hand, only ...

Hi Shell,

Continued with the exercises. I didn't repeat the answers in the previous mail, but complemented them.

So I have an exercise for you. And I want you to do it. Really do it. Find a moment when you can sit somewhere, like in a park setting. I want the eyes to be closed when you get to be ...

Hi Shell,

I just had an insight: I am not DOING anything. I am present as awareness to see what arises but I have no influence or power whatsoever. I cannot steer the body or thoughts or feelings or seeing for that matter. I mean I see, but I am not doing or steering the seeing. I am an ...

Hi Shell,

Just a quick reply from my phone.
Thanks a lot for your encouragements. It helps a lot to continue with full energy and enthusiasm.

Talk to you again tomorrow!
Love, Nils

Hi Shell,

I tried all day looking and looking without thinking. While driving the car, sitting in the kitchen, walking through the city center. I will continue tomorrow and try to find a good spot to sit down and take a bit more time in one place.
But I thought I'd give you a 'status update', to ...

Hi Shell,

Wow! Big exercise.
Thanks for that. I'm excited to do it.

Just for you to know. In my timezone (Netherlands) it is bedtime now, so it will be a while before I post again with the results, since I will do the exercise tomorrow during the day.

Thanks again!
Nils

Hi Shell,

Thanks for your encouragement and your time for this during christmas. It is a different kind of christmas for me like this, quite wonderful. I think it is very special what you guides do here. Maybe after I have gone through the gate I can contribute as well in some way.

To the fear ...

Hi Shell,

If I'm honest and not recite what I have read somewhere else, I experience a "me" somewhere in my head. It's not in my fingers, or eyeballs or ears, but somewhere in the middle of my head.
I guess it has to do with seeing and hearing. If I have my eyes open I experience myself behind my ...

Hi Shell,

Merry X-mas to you too!

I just hit myself on the fingers too see what would happen... :-)
No, if I imagine this situation then I guess the sensory input is:
- seeing a hammer contact with a finger
- probably hearing some kind of thumping sound
- feeling pain (or some kind of unpleasant ...