aaahhhhhh.....they just popped up. Never mind!!

Hi Metta....I received the final questions and replied with my answers ...but in checking right now, neither your questions or my responses are to be found. Did you receive them?

Thanks for all your help...

Noell

There is no me..at all..anywhere in any way shape or form...and never was. I find this realization strangely obvious and ordinary. It's been right under my nose all along...but overlooked..due to the blindness of unquestioned assumption. Looking for, but not finding an actual, separate me is like ...

Hi Metta....I have experiencially seen that there is no actual entity that houses and generates "me-ness"....that 'Noell' is an idea that has been constructed, reinforced over seeming time. What i thought i was boils down to thoughts, feelings and sensations....appearing in/as what I actually AM ...

Yes... I understand there is no "i"...and I experience it directly when I'm resting as awareness or doing the inquiry. There is always peace immediately present. As I said before, when I get very involved with daily life that sense of peace can shift to the background of attention.

Thanks for the ...

Hi Metta...yes...the looking feels like a non specific spaciousness that is always here and now. As for whether there is any seeming control about what thoughts arise...I just did an experiment and intentionally thought "The book is open". Is that having control over the thinking? (like, in the old ...

Dear Metta...

Regarding this statement:

"So when thinking about awareness and it is not a thing, but looking or seeing, what does that say about your identity"..... could you clarify this, especially the "but". Are you saying awareness is looking and seeing?

In the moments of inquiry...I have the ...

Hi Metta.....Awareness is seamless, edgeless...and no, I can't find where my fingers end and the keyboard begins.

Love

Noell

typo corrected! ....the thoughts and pictures are not the stuff of my reality.

Hi....I'm only recently coming to a fuller realization that I'm not my thoughts or feelings. Although I can still jump on a train of thought and temporarily think/ experience it as defining me in some way, once I "come to", it is clear that the thoughts are passing through my awareness...so can't be ...

Hi..I just found this way of responding to you. You'll find an email from me as well. Let me know which you prefer.

I've had huge expectations about the Realized state...that I would abide as perfect peace at all times, expansive, uncondtitional love and unity with all that is. But a lot of that ...

Hi...I'd like a Guide to assist in seeing through personhood, please!. Ripe and Ready. Love, Noell