Hi,

Do you know what is going to be your next thought BEFORE it’s present?
Or you know your next thought when it’s already present ?

No you can not know anything before it is present.
The second question seems rhetorical. No you can not know your next thought when it is present.


Dear Grace it ...

Hi Vivian,


A nd what about the first thought “I am going to think about blue” – have you thought that? Or that just arose on its own? And you can know that thought when it’s ALREADY present?

Yes, it did arise on its own. Out of the blue shall I say.:) it’s funny when asked and looked it’s like ...

Hi Vivian!

This reply has taken so long. I have to unwind myself from the stories before enough clarity happens to answer.I remember you asked to to write every few days but. I don’t see that possible right now.

Ok,things are happening and that’s it? My ego/persona is attached and weaves stories ...

Hi again Vivian,

do you know that there is a seer and not just seeing / noticing happening? Not as a noun, as an entity, but as a verb, as a happening?
That is interesting! I don’t know at all if there is a seer as an entity. I assume that because something IS happening and it is seen. Beyond ...

Hi Vivian,

It took me awhile to unwrap my self .

Is a thought aware?
Can a thought be aware of a movie?
Is a thought an aware entity being able to notice and watch things?

No, a thought is not aware. It thinks it is by saying so but it’s not.
A thought is not able to notice things or watch. It ...

Hi Vivian,

what is it that is watching this movie?
What or who is it that is affected by the mental stuff?

Consciousness is watching the movie.
Or a protector in the form of thought. Thought seems to have many roles,therefore it can be deceiving.
I am not clear on this.
What is affected by ...

Hi Vivian
Here is what I am finding.

Notice, how much time do you spend watching a mentally fabricated movie about the past?

How much about an imagined future?
I spent most of the time in the movie of future and past. The times I was not doing that were when I reminded myself to check where the ...

Hi Vivian.


would they different? What you call phantom self = me = Gracie
I guess they are not different. They have different flavors but are all taking part in the same story. The different flavors are convincing in that the very diversity throws me off .

No, the illusion of a psychological ...

Hello again Vivian,

How does this ‘phantom self’ show up in moment-to-moment living?

How does it look like?
How big it is?
Where is its physical location?

When it shows up, how do you know that it’s the phantom self and not something else?


The phantom shows up as a character in a story. It ...

Vivian,
So many things have been happening in my life right now that I have been remiss in responding!

The questions require repeated contemplation .

I can see that actual experience is quite different than thinking about it .they are both there and while happening for me,playing ping pong ...

Hi Vivian,
Thank you for the clear questions.

I can see that experience is definitely different than thought about the experience.

It seems like thought ,at times was a way to escape experience. For example, if the body and emotions held in that body don’t feel well then thought becomes a ...

Hi Vivian
I would like to respond 3 days if that is ok ? As I ha been responding more as you asked.

Let me think about this please. I appreciate your questions so much.

Ok I have looked in to this as much as I could
Perception of my self in everydayness.
There is no one thing. It constantly changes although there is an awareness of all the changing sensations, and the experience of that remains the same
. I am not sure about that awareness except that it is ...

Vivian,

Keeping this discovery in mind, what is it that you perceive yourself to be in your everyday life? I don’t mean what you intellectual understand and reason what you are, but rather what is it that you perceived yourself to be experientially in the mist of ordinary life?


Vivian, I have ...

Hi Vivian,

I sn’t this giant space a mental image?
Look very closely…. Don’t you visualize a giant space as things appear in them?

Yes it is a mental image but it is also something else. I can visualize a giant space with things but also can sense the truth of it.

It is only at this time a sense ...