Hi John,
Yes, it was good to go through the questions.. thanks again.

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? how about self, is there anything that is separate from everything else?
There is a 'me' that can appear in shape and form, in experience, just ...

Hi John,
Yes, 100% certain that there is no individual entity running the show. The show arises and there can be an appearance of a me and thoughts of a me running the show, but it is known that they are just thoughts. A me is made up of thoughts which cannot be what I am.
THIS is completely ...

Hi John,
Just experiencing happening here, ever changing, no desire to describe at the moment.
Happy New Year,
Pete

Hi John,

So what's happening? An I-thought/feeling shows up and "you feel like 'Pete' again"? Is that it?

Bring in the strongest I-thought imaginable. See it start and end. Bring in a weak I-thought. See it start and end. Can what you are be bounded by a thought? Try.

Ok, looking at I-thoughts ...

Thank you John.
I happened to watch this video last night by Scott Kiloby http://youtu.be/u_Z8exl5pJ8. This method is helpful to me when a strong I-thought comes up to transition into DE and reinforce that it is only a thought/feeling.

Best,
Pete

Thanks John.
"infinite regression of thinking about thinking", or as I have expressed it as 'mind spinning' and like you said 'around in circles'.
There is desire here to stay in here/now DE as much as possible.

Yep, it washed through..
I just noticed a transition or change in focus from seer to no seer. Seems when looking for the I, that a me comes into focus that is looking, the I can be felt clearly as some thing looking. This wasn't easy but when finally in DE just hearing was noticed with no hearer ...

Hi John,

This seeing from no where - explore it:

Does it have a location?

Can it see itself?


It is here, knowing/seeing with no location, no form.. it can not see itself. Seeing is completely indescribable, I don't know what it IS, just like any other experience/thing. I don't know any ...

Good morning John,

The "how-real-me-feels" feeling is just fine. It's a feeling that comes and goes. And it's seen that it is what it is: a feeling, and not what we'd conditioned ourselves to believe: that it is the substance called me. :) This is seen clearly, very simply, in awareness.
Yes it ...

In general, there's the guiding, whilst knowing that guiding is a story; this episode includes "Pete" and "John". What I am is unknown. Truly. Don't tend to think of me as a who. :) My basic response to life is as a mystery. So this process is an "inquiry" and it's not an "inquiry" at the same ...

Hi John,
When all is let go there is just THIS, anything said is just description on top of it. Any question about it has no meaning. Mind is not a thing, it just what we call thoughts coming up from a seemingly certain viewpoint. When thought is let go THIS is all that's left. Game over. So I ...

Thanks for both replies John..
"what's it like to have expressed that?" (that I can never declare there is no me). Well, it is somewhat freeing but there is still some confusion around it. The mind is still trying to figure it out and wants to come to a conclusion. But if thinking is set aside then ...

Had this thought today, 'can I just claim that there is no me if these feelings, etc. keep coming up?'.. Then the thought that I can never claim there is no me. That would be a me making a claim. It is funny that thought feels pressure to declare there is no me but then who'd be declaring it? So I ...

Hi John,
Lots of pretty intense emotions coming up here and there over last few days.. Questioning will come up, confusion/frustration gets uncomfortable, then a pause and realization that it is all thought and can be swept aside. Those uncomfortable self conscious situations are more difficult to ...

Yes, thoughts/belief of a story of me still comes up. Its funny, you keep returning to the same point over and over and the thought that came up is "he doesn't think I'm there yet" :o! Wow, I get a clear sense of me that I can look at with that! :)
Thank you. I know that this is a manufactured story ...