Hi Holly

It's funny i have my own enquiry going which seems to be running parallel to yours into sensations in the body that are experienced as difficult. So sometimes i am not sure if i am trying to guide you or myself 😂. In a way i think they are the same thing and that is why guiding can be such ...

Hi Holly


I shift to the thoughts without noticing it. There have been a handful of times I've been able to see/hear the thoughts without getting pulled into them. But before it happens it often feels like my body is pleading with me to allow it to just go back to sleep, to rest. The quality of ...

That's great Holly, i would say you are on the money with being hooked by thoughts or not. It's not about whether thoughts are present or not it's about whether we are hooked by them or not.

So, in the example you give of when fear arises, a thought often comes up which says blah, blah, whatever ...

Hi Holly


I think the term "awareness" actually means multiple things. There is the awareness which is just simply being alive with a nervous system. But then there is this other quality, which I don't think is actually awareness, but which gets called awareness all the time. I remember one person ...

Hi Holly


I'm thinking all along what I thought was awareness was not awareness. But still, I have some questions. Why is it that pretty much every spiritual teacher says "be aware"? How can this be possible for me to do?

And also, what is the quality of difference in experience when it feels ...

Hi Holly

It might be interesting to have a play and see what happens when you try to be aware. What difference does it make ? Does your posture or what you feel in your body/mind change ? Do you feel more tense or relaxed ?


I went for a run today, and felt this happening. Everything was done by ...

Hi Holly :-)


I know this is kind of a lot for one post. Thanks for bearing with me :)

Not at all ! The more you put the easier it is for me to respond. I just don't want you to feel like you have to come up with a lot every time you reply.


I'm finding that it makes it easier to allow ...

Hi Holly

Good luck with the weekend work!
Thanks, it went well


I spend time with this today because this is really beautiful and profound, that there isn't any person that dislike can stick to. I can't find anyone of course, but I want to spend more time on this.

When it's clear there is ...

Hi Holly

I'm away now and over the weekend working so I can't give this as much attention as I'd like right now.

Nice looking for the chooser. What you write resonates very much with my own experience. It's great that you are looking at these with such care and allowing them to carry you deeper ...

Hi Holly

Yes, indeed, some wonderful reflecting and exploring has been happening. :-)

So although control isn't something that we can find or do, It doesn't seem like things are completly random. The mind/body seems to be very good at taking care of what needs to happen, yes ?

I am interested ...

Hey Holly !


Sometimes its a couple of hours where I don't notice! But usually its not this long, its sometimes every few minutes. I do get really angry with myself about it sometimes.


Maybe it would be useful to look for what control you have over whether this happens or not. So i suggest you ...

I think my expectations about what I should be feeling or thinking are getting in the way and I have trouble believing that what I am experiencing and feeling right now is really enough. And so I think about what I think I should be doing or how I think I should be feeling, and miss the boat ...

Hi Holly !

Lovely to hear you enjyed your camping trip :-)


It was dark while we drove to the site, and I was noticing lights, I saw a red light and thought "red light" and then realized...it isn't a light, and it isn't red. These are just concepts. Its just a sensation to experience it and in ...

Hi Holly


One thing I noticed today is that I am resistant to seeking by looking at sensation. I sort of just don't do it and then tell myself that I did. This doesn't make a lot of sense to me why this is, except to say, in the past when I've spent lots of time paying attention to only sensation ...

Hey Holly

Ok, so i think you are saying that you are seeing thought cannot stick to or comprehend sensation.


If there is anything else I want to know about it, then I can only find out by looking at the sensation itself

If you look at sensation, what can you find out ?

Would you say a thought ...