There is a much more relaxed way to usual situations.
A more natural flow.
Intensity and old stories pop up from time to time, but it is easier to be among people.
There is not constant mindpanic.

Situations thoughts and to some agree feelings are much the same, relating to them is shifted.

There ...

That is part of the ingrained illussion, that there is a decider, chooser and controller.
It is not found anywhere. It is just another story.

Life happens by itself.
Like driving to job thoughts about driving carefully when seeing a cat is automatic and often memories and stories of earlier ...

The real last push was when looking at what really needs protecting.
Something happened there.

Seeing it feels so simple and uncomplicated.
There is a feeling of automatic unpacking, of starting to see what is really happening instead of constant minddueling.
A feeling of relief and also excitement ...

The illussion is a story repeated and believed to be something real.
It is probably from young age by learning of language.
Language in its form describe all as seperate individual objects creating a seperated woeldview.

Before it was like being in the story, identify with the story of I.
Now it is ...

A gradual almost unnoticable shift.

Yes it is clear. So much the same but a slight difference as it does not belong to a me, it was only an mistaken assumption.
Feelings thought arise mostly the same as ever, except there is not the holding of it to be personal, it is like the war has been stopped ...

There is more of a life unfolding and noticing what is happening.
The search is more or less gone, more of a rechecking how did this appear, seeing more and more it is happening of itself and when getting lost in feelings or thought faster noticing this is a thoughtbased story playing which mind ...

If stressed or nervous it is easy to get sucked into story.
Mostly it is ok to let them go, when much fear tension stress old patterns kick in saying situation needs to be controlled.

No need to take the images seriously but sometimes it happens of it self mind saying situation needs to be taken ...

The story could spiral down into more depression, fear and darkness.
Protecting the story feels meaningless as it only causes suffering.

Only what is not real need protection. The story of I needs protection.

Body needs protection, mind imagine that all situation needs to be handled to not get out of control and body gets hurt physically or something hurting the selfimage

It is all mind trying to handle life and trying to manuvuer life to get minimal hurt and maximum comfort.

Whats behind wanting ...

Images are made of thought.

The change between image of room in head is that it is a thought structure, often flat and lifeless.
Image of room is also based on thinking of what was in the room when last looking and then placing those objects in the thofuht-image.

Being in room is a feeling of ...

Thought feeling trigger eachother. Often to more and more extremes.

Sensation feelings and thoughts are a response to life situation.

There is fear of the image of I tried to be mantained by great effort should be hurt, humiliated, shattered, proven wrong.
There is fear of history holding so much ...

take a look, is there a separate self that is disconnected from the whole?

There are separate experiences, separate feelings, thoughts. As what is experienced here is not experienced in the exact same way anywhere else.
But experiences happen in the whole, it is a part of all that is as it ...

Just checking in. Not had time to look so much into questions today.
Write more tommorrow.

Thoughts feelings arise, have story about a me at times.
After a while it loosens in power and dissapears.
Struggle more pain, letting it have it course it loosens in grip faster.


It is situation based. The stories and feelings where triggered more and more during the years by repeating it over ...