Hi Chris

please expand on question 3 a little more, giving more details of how it actually feels for ‘you,’ and how ‘you’ are actually feeling having seen through the illusion
It feels like each breath takes longer, it physically can’t but there is a stillness with allowing the breath to complete ...

Hi Chris,

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No and no. Me is a word necessary for communication for the unique expression of life that is Siobhan

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works.
The ...

Hi Chris,

I couldn't have imagined it would be like this, was that it? is it really that simplistic?
Yes I would like to see if I have passed and the best part is that it doesn't feel like a competition or something that has to be gained. It appears very clear to me now but if the questions bring ...

Hi Chris,

semantics :)

When Siobhan started this process it was useful to go about talking and thinking without using the words I and me. It helped with the process of investigating.
But this gets tricky
In previous posts Siobhan was careful to not use I and me.
There has been a shift in my ...

ummm
how to explain
there is no I.
there is me looking at the patterns and conditioning but as I look they become irrelevant.
and I gets to live

Siobhan

Hi Chris,

I is a thought that occurs to Siobhan, in many different ways. By looking at them and seeing them for the thoughts they are, the story they weave and not a character that leads Siobhan then they come and they go, like all the other thoughts.
Siobhan doesn't feel any different that before ...

Hi Chris

I was expecting that I thoughts would be evaporated and never seen again, why would ‘I’ allow that :)
That Siobhan would live every moment in bliss

Can you notice though how hearing happens, that the hearing, the process of hearing and the heard are all one seamless experience, with no ...

Play-doh

I'm sitting on a bench in a back garden, the air is crisp, the sun is shining
I close my eyes
And imagine the scene that was just seen made of play do
Hands gather all the pieces together & squish them into a giant brown ball
Them the scene is re-created exactly as before (even in the correct colour ...

Hi Chris,

Yesterday I came back in force
In work, with friends and family
Drama queen, gossip, brat - all the different labels
then I judged myself and round and round on the merry go round I went

Changing the pattern of conditioning is all well and good and there were moments where I was in check ...

Hi Chris,

I asked the question before where do feelings, thoughts, emotions come from
well they happen as part of the experience
they are not a reaction that I or Siobhan chooses
why do people experience vastly different experiences
thats life
naturally trying out different experiences
life being ...

Hi Chris,

I'm going to stay with that description ‘I’ is still here, but like an interfering little sibling that’s annoying in a cute way, ruffle its hair and send it on its way
because it resonates with me and I claim to have written it. I wrote that. But 'I' don't remember choosing those words ...

Hi Chris,

There is still clearly an I that I identify with here. it's to one side and not in focus but not separate
This may not be the goal but it feels amazing none the less :)
I will continue to look and investigate

Thank you

Siobhan

without questions I’m floating along, not unsure but this is new

the running commentary of sarcasm and questions poofed out of the air, I thought this would be relief, but now it just seems natural to be silent

I’ve created a new pattern, the shoulders check. In my mind I place my index fingers on ...

I have been conditioned to believe that I can do anything I put my mind to. And you're telling me I don't exist. ‘I’ doesn’t hear anything…’I’ doesn’t think thoughts...because there is no ‘I’ That pretty much did it. Well who do you think you are Mr. Chris Enlightenment... etc. followed by anger and ...