No, thoughts aren't happening to me even when they feel like they are. I can't come and go so there is never really a me here.


Really good.

There can only be a scenario where there is a thought of me doing things. Will this ever stop?


Good, there can only be thoughts about you doing things ...

No it is not personal. It just is. Alex is just a story.


Good.

Only in the sense that Alex's perspective looks at things. But the sense is not personal.


Yes, there is a first person perspective but that doesnt belong to any seperate entity. There is no such thing there as you have seen ...

Thoughts and feelings are not happening to me. When I am making effort to watch my direct experience they just arise. When I am not making effort to watch my direct experience, the thoughts and feelings feel like they are happening to me.


When you are not watching youre direct experience then ...

Dear Adam,

Sorry for not being able to answer youre messages. You are doing a wounderful job. I am having some issues with my family and in the same time I am working a lot because a lot of my workers are on vacation at the moment.

I dont have as much time as I used to and I want to ask you if its ...

Dear Sundew,

Sorry for not being able to answer for a few days. I have had some family issues so I have not had time to answer. Good that things is becoming clearer for you : )

Yes the truth of what is said can only ever be seen now. Right now there is no one here but still things happen and life ...

Good.

When thoughts happen, are they happening to you?
When feelings happen, are they youre feelings?

Can you see that this whole movie about Brad is on autopilot, is happening by itslef without there being a YOU that is doing anything?

If I watch a mousehole then most of the thoughts come out of other holes and ambush me from behind. I can’t see them until they overwhelm me, by which time it is usually too late to see where they came from. When I do see them come from the mousehole I’m looking at, I am afraid that I still see ...

I am spending a lot of time looking at the world, looking at the internal dialogue and while I cannot say that there Is an Alex to be seen, there is a sense that an Alex exists. Alex may not be separate from the world as such.


There is a sense of existing Alex, a sense of presence, being ...

It may well be that all those stimuli I see behind each thought are just a product of my beliefs. But to say that thoughts come from nowhere would also be just a belief, not supported by my experience.


I you sit like a cat watching a mouse hole and wait for the next thought to come. Tell me ...

In youre actual reality right now you have youre 5 senses.
Is seeing having any problem to see?
Is hearing having any problem to hear?
Same thing with Feeling?
Tasting?
Smelling?

All this is happening naturally and easily. Where is the you in all of this?

Thoughts are happening naturally and ...

I'm not sure I see the difference. Any time I look for where a thought arises or goes, I see it merging and morphing into/from something else. For example: awareness of a smell arises along with a memory which brings an emotion, all of which congealed into a thought when words were applied. Or ...

So here is where things are. I am aware of the fact that what you say is true.

Are you agreeing with me or are you seeing this?

Do you have any doubts about there being a seperate Alex, living his life?

Any doubts, confusion about there being a I/me here?

The past couple of days, I’ve been noticing more and more quiet spaces between thoughts and sensations. Calling them “being”, “existence” or even “emptiness” seems a bit grandiose. Perhaps blankness?


Yes, beautiful. Is there just emptiness, being, existence, blankness or is there a knowing to ...

Sorry, have had my family visiting me so had a lot to do : )

So you see that all the senses is functioning naturally, effortlessly and that you cant stop or turn them on. That you cant controll them right? They are functioning by them self, so is the beating of the heart, blood pumping around in ...

I am getting hung up on intentions to do things. For example, the phone rings; there is an intention to answer the phone. There is a thought that I need to answer the phone. However, there is never a command thought "answer the phone", just an intention and the body answers the phone. This occurs ...