Hi Rohit. Well I've been having to sell off some possessions to pay the bills, but it will work out somehow. The last 2 nights I had hours of no sleep so I tried to spend the time seeing myself as a character in this show of life, that still seems like a good pointer to me. I know I'm not this body ...

Hi Rohit, I'm still around trying to find a little quiet time to look. It's been stressful lately so it sure would help if I could just see that there is no me to be stressed. I'll stay in touch, haven't given up yet.

I had another night for looking due to hours of no sleep. I tried looking for who is claiming ownership of these thoughts, feelings, sensations. Of course there was no "me" to be found. I'm sure it is so simple and obvious that I'm overlooking it. I also have to fight the temptation to expect ...

The last 2 nights I have had some time to lie in bed and do some looking. The looking actually felt better for some reason, hopefully that's a good sign. I have noticed the thoughts coming and going all on their own. I am not there unless I attach to one of the thoughts. I have thought about Santa ...

Very good description, I'm checking it out.

I'm still around Rohit, been busy but mostly I need to get the fire burning again. Surely desire has something to do with this. Except for those few cases where someone spontaneously awakens, people who do awaken really desire to be liberated. I will go back through our thread again and look at your ...

I'm still here Rohit. I find I have spent much less time looking lately so I'm trying to get the desire, the fire burning.

I've noticed that I start out with intention to "look" and then thinking comes along and I get caught up in the thoughts that may or may not have anything to do with seeing if there is a self. This is all very frustrating. I just want to let go of the controls and let life be lived without so much ...

Last night as I was unable to sleep, I started thinking (there's that damn thinking again). There's got to be some fear somewhere and I've hidden it so well that I don't even know it's there. So I dug around and came up with some intense anxiety and the repeating thought "I don't want to go". So ...

True Rohit, that belief is the key thing. I've also been trying to look and be aware of the present moment, just look and not label anything, just look.

I'm still hanging in there Rohit. I've been desperately looking for worked so a little distracted. I'm trying to look, not think and look easily without straining. When pointing, I can point at objects and then when pointing to myself I can either point at my eyes or body or see that there is no "me ...

I'm trying this Rohit. I have heard others also say that it is so simple, so common that it is overlooked.

I'm sure you are correct Rohit. Here is where I am: I can look at a chair in the room. I can see it and I can feel it. I can close my eyes and think of the chair, it's just a thought of a chair but I can open my eyes and see it. I can think of something imaginary, LU seems to use a unicorn, so I can ...

How is it going? are you through?

I wish, Rohit. All I can do at this point is keep looking. At least you have me pointed in the right direction

I seem to be looking in a different way today, maybe closer to the way looking needs to be.