What says your direct experience, what is world, what is separate right now?

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There is sense perception, hands on keyboard, drink tea, taste, eat chocolate. It all just happens, there is a sense of things being insubstantial, kind of like watching a movie but with no separate watcher. The ...

Do you exist, David?

No, although the name is a label for this body/ mind. There is no being called David its just a name for ease of identification, the stories/ beliefs/ attitudes have no substance nor relationship to this label, nor substance in reality. If David does not exist does the world ...

It is just thoughts in awareness, however such thoughts/ resultant feelings are sometimes taken as reality when I am not conscious of this fact, i.e. I believe myself to be a me identity
Is that a problem?

In those moments when there is forgetfullness, yes it is believed there is a problem by ...

Identification happens, also for some time after seeing the „I“ is just a thought. Brain can't be re-programed all at once. There will take some time and let go of imaginary control and surrendering to life, to awareness.
But let's look a bit deeper at this right now.
How this identification ...

Hey David,

Whatever arises in experience, arises. Thoughts, sensations, also doubts. It is good to notice it and see does that happen to someone or it just arises in the experience.
Thoughts about self and some old conditioning usually stays after initial seeing. But constant, deep looking ...

Hi Eloratea,

David,

do you feel ready for the kind of final questions?
Do you feel a perceptual shift; that seeing happened?
Or there are still some doubts, feeling of not being "there", anything you would like to look at deeper now?

Love.

I have felt shifts and that seeing is occurring at ...

Hey David,

when you make decision, who is making them? :)
How that happens?
And who is communicating with who now?

Be well.

Hi Eloratea,

Decisions occur spontaneously, the I tells a story about it making them or not.

There cannot be a who communicating with another who, if the whos don't ...

The experience is as it is. However the me feels that it is experiencing it,
You are not „looking“ here in direct experience. If „me“ is just a thought, how can thought feel?
It can't. It is still just another thought: me is feeling…
Story is going on it its own. Just notice. There are sensations ...

Hi Eloratea

Could you please quote only the text from previous post, it will be easier to read :) - Okay dockey


David is a name for the character in this life story. And that is fine. It is label for the particular body-mind. (We don't get here into reality of body-mind as solid separate object ...

Hi David,

There is no you or me, I have to spend time in thought for work or so it seems and appear to lose touch with direct experience, or run over them, there is no me except in thoughts.
Thoughts are also useful. It is necessary to use them for the work. Just see when they are not necessary ...

That would be free, there is not that sense here at the moment, there is tiredness and identification, there is awareness of it, but seeming ownership of it as a me not getting this.
Relax. It is already here. Get more in touch with direct experience; Sensations, feelings. Go in nature. Notice ...

I can see borders I have made however they are imaginary, constructed out of concern for this I, the face holds tension, perhaps the mask of that I, it feels like a hook though the jaw pulling down and to the side (not painful however). There is some rest and sense of deepening.
Have you made that ...

Hi Eleanor.

Thank you for your reply.

I have to ask you to leave all your expectations here as we don't need them at all for this.
Some of them may come true, some not. You can check on them later if you will wish so.
This isn't a magic that will fix your life story, but there will be a new ...

Hi Eloratea,

Thanks for picking up my post

Expectations

Interesting, when I look for the expectations most immediately disappear or dissapate, seen to be false. Lets see, what came up hung around - freedom, release from suffering or worry or stress, unbounded health & vitality, clarity, peace ...

Hi all,

I've just joined the site and wondered where to start, felt I've been courting awakening long enough so in at the deep end it is. I have lots of stories spiritual, teachers, brief periods of seeming liberation. The mind is mostly quiet now, the practices left unpracticed, but still I don ...