Hi Nick,

I've decided to take a break from Liberation Unleashed. After some opening up in that first week, it feels like there has been a reaction now in the opposite direction. So there is contraction, tension, fear and anxiety coming up. I am trying to allow and surrender into as much as possible ...

There are ideas of a you and are being experienced, but there is no actually YOU there when it comes to if there is a SEER experiencing reality. It is what is being SEEN is what THIS IS.


Did you mean to say there is NO seer experiencing reality? I get stuck on the sensory experiences of, say ...

How strange - you send me an interview of Benjamin Smythe, while I'm making dinner, watching Benjamin Smythe's interiew on Buddha at the Gas Pump!!!! Synchronicity. What a compassionate guy. Love him.

Will take time taking in the rest of your last post.

Hello Nick,

So you're still hanging on in there with me. You have much patience and generosity. I am truly grateful for that.

Pleased to say I'm having a quieter day today. And it's raining so great excuse just to stay in and do very little! Seems important in this process somehow. However on my ...

Good Saturday morning to you Nick,

I have just returned from a dry, sunny but nippy autumnal god (meant to write dog ha ha) walk.

I tried looking to see if I can find myself in experience but mainly felt frazzled and tired. Feel need to rest and do some tai chi. With this realisation, tears come ...

Life has got very busy in the latter part of this week, so I have not had so much time to be with this and post. I'm off to London tomorrow too, so hopefully life will quieten downa bit from Sunday.

The pull seems strong. Relax into it, you can tell your mind that you thank it for its concern and ...

Afternoon dog walk. Less stress. Fleeting moments of this is.

Btw you might want to just be with the dog walk instead of contemplation.

I tried this. Firstly during my sitting practice this morning - there was some release and relaxation.

Then I tried this during the dog walk. There was so much stress and tension in my body, it was hard to just be with the ...

Oh no, I see that now we're on page 5. More pressure. ha ha

Much gratitude for your beautiful and reassuring post. I will re read it and look deeper into it and get back to you. I am laughing at myself now saying I am feeling pressure 'being on page 4' here. Ha ha. How many pages should it take? Lol.

Oh B*****, I'm a b***** control freak. 'I' have convinced myself (who have I convinced?!) that I need to be in control to be accepted,belong, loveable, etc etc. I am frightened to let go and 'let God' in my relationships. I will end up alone if I don't manage my relationships. That's a belief ...

Just a quick additional thought - in terms of relationships, I don't like to disappoint others if they have expectations of me. This is a fear of letting go and the chips falling where they may isn't it? I am fearful of not controlling relationships/what others think of me/how am I with others. Is ...

Can you clarify on the others paying you too much attention

I understand that this issue in relationship with others is a reflection of me but I feel I have to play a role in some of my relationships which doesn't seem to give space for this enquiry. There seems to be alot of investment in me ...

can we call a pattern a pattern if it is never the same

No the word pattern is just a label but suggests some symmetry or order, I guess? What is just is. No pattern, no words describe it truly. I get this about universities etc, even the diagnosis of a cold, which is a collection of sensations ...

It's all patterns, like a kaleidoscope, but when patterns appear to recur (although they never recur exactly the same twice - I get that), they get labelled by thought and then seem familiar and somehow identification and attachment (and suffering) occurs. Its all just a flow of patterns, some of ...