Thanks for your response John.
When fears are intense, they seem more than just showing up. When they are not, they are seen more clearly.
While being loved by God is better than being scared shitless, I do see the separation involved.
I'm re-embracing God, and in so doing, will undoubtedly find the ...

Hi John.
I haven't been inspired to continue the dialogue, but I will do my best to answer your questions and share what's come up.
My fears are about not sleeping and being more tired and about being too fatigued to function the next day. Crazy thoughts like "you won't sleep" get attached to the ...

Hi John.
I reread your post, and feel little motivation to respond. I don't know why. It seems that being on the fence is a comfortable place to be, or at least maybe more comfortable than getting off it.
It may also be that dealing with my nighttime fears is becoming predominant. They're worse than ...

I'm still here (uh oh). Been busy and tired. Will respond

"As you can see, it's also clear to him that you're standing on the fence and oscillating between trusting direct experiential evidence and believing thoughts.

I think this sums it up.


Do you see that you never have to BELIEVE direct experiential evidence?

I understand this and I see this.


He ...

Thanks for the nudge John.

There’s a lot to say. I’m going to respond in pieces, with a post each couple or few days. I’ll let you know when I’m done. I’ll start with an update.

After a couple of days of awareness spontaneously making itself known, which was gratifying and pleasurable, I started ...

Hi John. Thanks for your feedback, and for enlisting the feedback of others.
I'm going to digest this, as well as some turkey tomorrow, (it's Thanksgiving here in the U.S.) and will respond after the weekend (I'll be away).
Thanks
Ken

I re-read the entire thread. Wow. There's a lot there. Thanks for your considerable contribution and participation.

Whenever attention is paid to direct experience, there is never any doubt about truth. But old habits continue without proper interruption. Perhaps what's missing is the frequency of ...

I will take your advice.

Hi John.
If it's alright with you, I'd like to take some time to see what, if anything, is missing.
Ken

Thanks for the tutorial.
Am still considering your last question, and will respond.

HI John.
There us much frustration. Everyone of your questions was answered, and when submission was attempted, a message like "only 3 quotes/messages or whatevers can be embedded". Attempts were made over and over. Copying and pasting the whole response was attempted, unsuccessfully. So in summary ...

Hi Ken

This is indeed a quick reply. My immediate reaction to the last couple of exchanges is frustration, annoyance, and even boredom. The topic of free will was interesting at the beginning, seems tedious now. I thought I was in a good mood...maybe I'm not. I'll revisit this later, though I don ...

Hi Ken

You're doing a really great job so far, and you're remaining well focussed on direct experience.

I hope your family emergency is resolving positively.

It has resolved positively, thank you for caring :)

Suffering is felt only when experience is referenced to an "I". Without an "I ...

Hi Ken

You're doing a really great job so far, and you're remaining well focussed on direct experience.

I hope your family emergency is resolving positively.

It has resolved positively, thank you for caring :)

Suffering is felt only when experience is referenced to an "I". Without an "I ...