Hi John , Can't find the context of the doubts ,
I'll speak about them from here ,
The doubts were like an attachment to some story about what liberation should look like and then speaking from the story and getting stuck there instead of allowing the doubts to come and go as they wish , like a ...

No nothing separate just polarities dancing or fighting.
The great mystery gives rise to all flavours .
The mind appears to have favorites I like green but not grey etc....
There isn't a shortage of identification / life expressions in the centre of all the expressions , lies nothing not nothing as ...

Well there are no gates , just a mind full of thoughts and feelings pointing in all directions for me to look for it ahead in the future back there in the past even now in the present but there are no gates , nothingness is simply there and out that every thoughts feelings arise,
at times those come ...

No ,thoughts can't be trusted.
Thoughts are automatic they can provide instant instruction for the body to respond or they are more complex even then they still arise out of no where.
Thoughts seem to arise all the time without my control.
The nature of each thoughts is emptiness or nothingness ...

Hi Vince , are you alright?
Please come back:)
Doug

Ok I'm 100 per cent sure that there's no one or nothing moving the hand .
I'm watching the moving of the hand and I ask is there a watcher there's certainly a vigilance , a checking up mechanism 'is this true? '
I sense there's no watcher either but I still experience some separation between the ...

No entity just a movement and beyond the movement an emptiness, an empty movement
There's a sense of fragility in that simple action.
It's doing it by itself I have no control over the moving of the hand.
The story of fear slowly pops its head out with a be careful message and a sunken feeling in ...

I had a bit of a look inside and it feels like a fire burning consuming all the wood and that wood turning into ash.
The quality of ash is light , the wind can carry it and water can dissolve it but wood on the other has got a strong structure quite heavy and insoluble .wood is a powerfull fuel ...

Being totally alone with no escape routes.
I'll be defenseless .
Douglas will get swallowed by the great nothing.
Then nothing of me as I know it will be left.
I might become the great nothing and that might be great and very freeing.
There'll be no thoughts like going into neutral between a gear ...

When I look in I experience a great fear of emptiness that's the sensation that arises " shit I'm surrounded by that great nothing and I'm gonna get swallowed whole by it" then the endless thinking chattering analysis etc arise from that to comfort me .
In a nut shell I'm shit scared .

The chatter just arises .there isn't a me" going now chat a lot".

I'm not sure the forum idea is working out just going in circles , I forgot what I'm even looking for.

I'm annoyed with it ,
It just keeps going and going untiressly like a loud brass band with endless permutation of dissonant melodies.
I get entertain by that chatter it's difficult to put it aside I think it keeps me company a bit like a dog or a spouse.

I'm annoyed with it ,
It just keeps going and going untiressly like a loud brass band with endless permutation of dissonant melodies.
I get entertain by that chatter it's difficult to put it aside I think it keeps me company a bit like a dog or a spouse.

Yes I do .
Ok useless mind chatter.
Right now that's all there is.