Thanks for the comments Andrew. I'm busy now applying for employment and I also seem to have run out of steam as far as this conversation is concerned.
Erik, I've benefited a lot from our conversation, but I'm going through significant changes and I'm going to have to this site put it on hold until ...

So Marc... Is there any more room for Marc to exist?
In reality, Marc is either real or an illusion. I'm not sure I know which is true based on my experience. I don't even know if I will ever determine for sure which case is true. I just understand that it is possible that "Marc" is an illusion ...

Is "Marc" really necessary for shoe laces to be tied?
If I concentrate on tying shoelaces, then all my attention can go into that activity.
But that could also be stated as "shoelace tying is and the illusion of a subject doing the tying are
occuring", which does not need a "Marc".

Is "Marc ...

What I'm getting at is that "you" are not a thing. "That which perceives" is all that there is. The incessant chatter of your mind-noise that you consider "yourself" does not actually exist in reality. There is a just a human being called "Marc" that writes and says a bunch of words, thinks a bunch ...

Look at the threads of your experience and tell me where you can find Marc.

My experience currently consists of typing at the computer, getting up to walk around the apartment, look out the window at the sky, clouds, trees, people, dogs, ... . I don't make any effort to be aware of any of these ...

Sorry for the long delay Eric, but because of all the thinking I've been doing about this, I seem to be dropping ill-conceived unquestioned assumptions about the "I" and I can't simultaneously deconstruct myself and respond to your questions at the same time. This deconstruction is a result of ...

What exactly is it that you hope you will achieve through this "seeing"?
I want to completely obliterate the illusion of an "I" that is separate from the rest of the universe.
After that I would assume that being lived without a parasitical "I" would at least allow for a more
meaningful life in ...

Ask yourself: Is there really a controller for my actions?
Sadly, yes, I still feel this "I".

I think a story might help you here. Reading this story is actually what got me to "see" this thing. It's pretty long, but it should help illustrate the points I'm talking about much more eloquently ...

Hi Eric,

Do you find it interesting that this "I" that you've spent your entire life believing in is so hard to find? To pin down?
Yes, but I've looked over my previous posts and can find at least one solid definition for the sense of "I": it is the the one who makes innumerable decisions like ...

No more of this "I seem to believe" or any of that. Answer from your experience as directly and honestly as you can. The less hesitation between writing and posting, the better.
Good point, it's either real or it is not. I''ll keep that in mind.

This is where we need to look now. You suspect ...

Look at it though. Is there a separate entity floating around outside of your skull controlling your actions?
A separate entity floating around outside of my skull controlling my actions seems to be a new concept that neither you nor I mentioned before. But to answer the question, no, there is no ...

Lift your arm up and look at it. Lower your arm back down. Repeat this exercise as necessary. Who is telling the arm to raise and lower?
Here's what happened in each cycle:
(1) I (i.e. the entity called Marc) decided to raise my arm.
(2) The arm went up at the rate I want it to.
(3) The arm ...

Hi Eric, thanks for your help, I sincerely appreciate it.

What comes up when I say: There is no separate entity called Marc in real life at all; there never was.

I may not know exactly what "Marc" is, but I strongly experience such an entity in practice through the body.

The entity labelled as ...

Hi, my name is Marc and i'm requesting a guide.
I learned of this site through the batgap interview.
I thought I'd give it a try since I would sincerely like to achieve liberation (in the sense that this term is used on this site).
My illusion of self is occasionally causing me a great deal of ...