Awe - just got to be endlessly - right - and ever the 'teacher' ... just don't see the stories are about - no-one. Got to insist they are about 'me' and NOT 'you! How enlightened.

So the insight of the mind let's you know if your projecting or not - now there's a very reliable source.

Sorry to ...

Oh my - still carrying on - with your endless stories about 'me' (?) This is better than the soaps.

Illona suggested I leave = I was/am - following directions - which you all are really big on ... and which is something you - John - have failed to notice about 'me' ... this whole story about me ...

Really ??? !!!

That is a HUGE amount of interpretation!!!

I did - show up .... I only wished - I had read and realized I could have requested a guide whose - style - I felt resonant with. What has happened beyond this is simply stunning!

I - "HONESTLY" - interpreted my experience and - HONESTLY ...

You know I reread the original threads with Rohit last night ... and I saw that there was really nothing at all wrong with his approach - and I was shocked at how different it looked! I clearly didn't understand the process - however my thoughts and perceptions about what was going on were way off ...

I don't know what is going on - I was told by Illona not long ago - after - I explained that you had written me that she still said Anki would be contacting me. Apparently the timing of emails got all screwed up. This has become way too convoluted.

Your 'right' - whatever that is ... your last ...

Is it possible to start a new thread? This thing is dead and gone ... .

I am very sorry - that was my conditioning just being very - jabby. Is there a delete button? The "i" felt hurt and apparently had to take a swipe at 'someone'. I am really sorry. It wasn't helpful at all.

What the hell - since you wrote all that about my content - here is my response.

No - I actually don't have expectations "that ALL this NEEDS to be in order, and then seeing can happen." However it doesn't hurt either. I would refer you to read the first testimonial on the web site ... the person ...

Ilona had emailed me that Anki/Lisa would be working with me =?

Not sure why that last post didn't register - perhaps it will soon enough.

Oh - wow -that was quick. I was just returning to post what had just occurred to me after all that - sharing. I don't know about being 'right' just my experience/interpretation of things.

Actually, I was just having a good laugh with myself ... it occured to me -how rediculous it is to believe ...

Hi Rohit - ok ...

1. I feel I need another guide - because I don't feel you actually read what I say. You ask questions about things I have addressed and ignore many aspects of my experience that I feel are pertinent to this conversation ... such as about the "I" being memory and you reduce ...

Hi Rohit:

I can't find any -where- that thoughts come from.

I can't find any thinker - still thoughts persist that presume there must be one - or something (conditioning?) that 'generates'/thinks thoughts = ? = who is the storyteller/thinker - thoughts appear fro nowhere I can find =?

No - I ...

No need to feel sorry about the story eg no need for platitudes ... another story says it served to get 'my' attention to look more closely at what was happening ... which seemingly led me - 'here' wherever that might be.


I thought I did say - what fear is to me. It is like a gut level sensation ...

Ok I got thru the crying ... and felt to share further on fear. Fear seems to exist as some kind of imaginary underpinning - like a generalized memory ... that seems to imply that as a baseline - something is not right like something/everything is somehow insane and therefore - dangerous and - needs ...