It was, indeed, El. The questioning brought to light the previously unrecognized belief in the reality of the "I" thought. Seeing through that was like cutting the final cord.
Much gratitude and love to you, and to everyone at Liberation Unleashed

Thank you, El.

The illusion of the separate self appears to start as a turning of attention away from direct experience in the present moment. Attention seems to fixate on thought - a mental conversation or images - and accompanying emotion and/or bodily sensations. Underlying all of this are ...

No. There was only ever the belief in the thought of a separate self. Right now, consciousness it talking to itself. I can't say there's a feeling of shift, as such. I can only say that the thought of a separate self is no longer believed. There is no longer a sense that there is anything to change ...

No, what I am has no form, no name, no location, no boundary, no beginning or ending.
Love,
s.q.

No, there is no separate experiencer. There is at times a rapid succession of thoughts. There is ebbing and flowing of emotion and physical sensations. The "I" thought that arises, claiming ownership of all of this, and then it dissolves... arises... dissolves... but it's just a thought. Thinking ...

Hi El,

Is this seen? That thoughts arise spontaneously?
If you hear that „I“ is just a thought, label without reference to anything real, how does that feel?

This question was like a perfectly aimed arrow.
When I sit with it, there is a surge of energy in the solar plexus, my breath catches in ...

Hi El,

Ah, okay, I see the confusion and doubt are still just part of identification with the tendency towards the "me" narrative, and the resistance to it is predicated on an assumption (desire?) that mind should stop "minding" now that its illusory nature is seen.
The anxiety, aversion, anger ...

If you can be honest and committed to this inquiry, it will be easy and simple.
You need only to drop all your gross and subtle expectations for a while and freshly look into your actual experience. Here-now.
And when you do that and when you hear that there is no you anywhere to be found and never ...

Waking up began as I was doing my Masters degree and finding myself in many situations where I was totally outside of my comfort zone. The low self-esteem that had plagued my all of my life was intensifying. I’d begun my graduate studies in an attempt to prove to myself and everyone else that I wasn ...