It hit me once and for all that I am truly alone. I can't get positive answers (beliefs) from anyone. I can only strip away as many of my beliefs as I am able to identify. There is existence so something some way some how IS... It just became glaringly obvious to me that no beliefs about life CAN be ...

I've gone round and round with this in my mind... I dont think someone who has never heard of this would understand the least bit of what I was trying to get across. But if I had to try, I would probably start at the beginning by asking questions.

Did you choose the color of your eyes?
How bout ...

This one is going to take more time... I'm sure the right analogy will come though.

When my eyes are open, the desperate self seems a silly fool... When back asleep the desperation is all important

Right now it feels great, but as with waking up from a long nights sleep, sometimes your eyes fall back shut. The good news is that they are inevitably going to open and stay open.

Only a mind full to the brim with conceptual ideas could sever a tree from a forest. Not one thing in what we call the universe could exist separate from anything else. It all goes together.
I constantly think about and imagine Plato's quote "time is the moving image of eternity". I'm not exactly ...

Early in our childhood people around us start telling us who and what we are. We start developing an idea in mind, a concept, an image, and a feeling. This concept starts the story, because everyone knows to have a story you need to have characters, so we start developing our character. We try all ...

I can only exist as a fantasy. It was all a dream.

Oh and I don't think I have any more questions. It seems pretty obvious that this quest of understanding is a solo one. Thank you for all of your pointing and all of your time. It's been a huge help to be able to converse with another person about this. The seeds are sown, and are beginning to ...

That video was incredible. I would love to do the camera experiment. It's amazing that the sense of the self can be displaced so easily...
The one with Jennifer Anniston was interesting too. Over the last few days I have been experimenting with how I conceptualizes the world around me, and how ...

I don't know man... I see the thoughts... I see they don't reference anything tangible or real, but there seems to still be doubt of what is seen. Why can I have a clear understanding that there is no I, but at the same time continue behaving as if there is? Is behavior not indicative of realization ...

I notice it constantly in me...

You mean people complaining about how so and so did this to me, or how they got cut off in traffic? That kind of thing?

I'm sorry man, that last post came off a little rude, but was not intended that way.
What do you think of the implications of what you just said? What conclusions have you come to about it?
To me it seems unbelievably strange that we all (meaning the whole human race) run around playing this ...

If I'm a story jeff, then you are a story, every god damn thing we all pretend to know is just a pretty little story. Yeah I'd say it's getting integrated... whatever that means. I believed I was a person moving through a world... Now I don't believe anything.