This is just to bump the post. Just checking on confirmation because interested in the aftercare group, although the everything seems to be stabilising a lot better than the first few days.

Also, asked on the Facebook page about the groups.

Thanks !

I write and I save the answers because I didn't write in Word document this time and they disappeared ! It's okay. :) It's fun to do the looking so I look again and write again.

That was easy, wasn't it?

The 'gate' part incredibly easy. I did absolutely nothing and very little actually happened ...

I couldn't go to sleep right away last night. There was a tiny bit of resistance that seemed to start to come up, like wanting to force the sleep. Only minutes before I had felt so exhausted, but the resistance seemed so silly it didn't stick around. I passed out when I quit trying. I actually slept ...

We were posting at the same time. :)

That was the exact question, though. I really thought I was going to get something much more than feeling like a retard, and I did in a way. If nothing is something to get.

The emptiness is what I was really searching for it and I found it but it was not what I ...

Thank you, Yari.

Around page 41 it happened. I told myself I was open and wasn't attached to how it could happen and blah blah blah bunch of lies. I really expected SOMETHING. I guess based on past magical type experiences, I thought it would be that magical experience, but on steroids. I mean ...

I feel like I have no choice. I have to do something and I don't know what. I just want it to end. The lies and suffering of the illusion.

It's like I've stepped far enough back to see it's all illusion but I can't completely detach. In some ways I think I am scared I could end up satisfied with ...