Very good Kenny! Yes, "me" exists but as thought referring to a story made of other thoughts! Kenny is a story, "me" is a story. A story after the fact - life happens and then mind comes in, out of habit and conditioning, and makes a story up about it, drawing lines across reality where there are ...

How do you think it is supposed to feel? There is no self anywhere, and there never was, so now that you're really looking really hard for one without being able to find anything, why should it feel all that different? The only thing to lose are a couple of unjustified, albeit long held, beliefs ...

I think you're being tricked by language here with "my awareness" or "cat's awareness", "your awareness". Yes, there are things I am aware of here and that the cat is aware of over there that you're not aware of. But "my awareness" or cat's awareness implies a separate entity called trevor or the ...

You're doing great Kenny. You're really close. In fact, the whole point is you're already there! There is no you, never was a you and there never will be.

How do you think it is supposed to feel? There is no self anywhere, and there never was, so now that you're really looking really hard for one ...

I understand what you're saying and everything...I'm not only thinking about all of this but I'm observing, looking, and doing. However, it feels like I'm not quite there..I'm almost there but something hasn't "clicked".

This is key! Does it really refer to something? If it does wouldn't you be able to clearly say what it is or point to it? I want to you to look, feel, listen, do whatever it takes, to find out what the label 'me' refers to, exactly. There's probably a chair in the room where you are now or a table ...

Also I observed everything that happened throughout the day. I found that there doesn't have to be a me to do any of this, however, I still feel that there is a "me" that can, if need be, make choices. But that is only if I actively am aware of making those choices, otherwise a "me" isn't there ...

You say Me is a label and that is true...but it's a label because it refers to something (that is, me).

Thoughts come from the brain. No I don't know what I'm going to think next, but I do know that I can choose what i think...but also I just just realized that if I observe thoughts, they too come ...

Also is it a problem if I read other threads on this forum?

Behind fear is....nothing. I can't find anything behind fear. From a logical standpoint, fear is trying to protect ME. But from what, I'm not so sure.

I tested all of the sensations. There is no I doing any of them, it's all automatic. There isn't an I required to do any of those actions, because ...

Me? I don't exist? Well the first thing that occurred was a perplexing feeling. How could I not exist? I'm having a conversation with you. It makes me a bit tense.

After that, I just decided to pretend that statement was true. It's a fearful thing to think about. If I don't exist...then what is ...

Hey Trevor. I live in the US, on the eastern coast. I'll answer everything with complete honesty. Also thanks for the heads up I'll definitely look up material related to this topic.

My expectations of liberation are, well simply said, to understand existence and be free from searching. I'm not ...

I'm ready for liberation. I've been searching for truth the last 3 years and I came to this website from another website. I've been meditating for the past 2 years. I'm ready to finally find truth.

Kenny