Hey man! Sorry for not answering for some time, had a lot going on in my life.

"But, this watching of thoughts is proving to be difficult.
Now, I have left this conscious attention or focusing.
Now I (this I thought) sit passively, just watching. But without its noticing, effortlessly this I ...

The blank mind arises as a contrast to the times when the thoughts are generated in your brain. The feeling of self is just a belief you have and continue to hold. Looking at the mind is just a way of destroying that belief by collecting contradicting evidence.

When chains of thought come up, DO ...

Are you attempting to look at the self through the self? Just accept it, let it be there. Dont judge, simply look at the activities of the mind, even the looking in and of itself.

"Okay, looking at the mind, the mind is looking at the mind, thoughts about looking at the mind is occuring" etc. ALL ...

Your close as fuck now man. It seems like you have an intellectual understanding of this. That can be helpful, but you have to be honest all along the way, otherwise, you'll probably get stuck in a hiding self somewhere along the way.

The self cannot release the identification with self. Remember ...

Comon mate, give me something to work with!

Describe your current sense of self. Look at it carefuly. What is it? What is it based on? Where is it?

You arent looking hard enough. Do you want this or do you want a sniff of liberation? Do you want to become liberated to become superduper cool and enlightened master?

Are you ready for stripping away the you? Are you ready for becoming one with the world and see yourself as a process along with ...

It seems like you think this is hard, like you have to gain a certain level of skill or achieve something before you can really start. That's just another tremendous mental block for you if you see it like that man.

Since the now is the only thing that exists, you can only see through your mind ...

Dont worry too much about stopping the thoughts. That should not be your aim. It really doesn't matter. What matters is wether you identify with them or not. Once you stop identifying with thoughts, they will naturaly stop being as manic and dysfunctional.

Just look at the fucking thoughts man ...

Dont worry too much about stopping the thoughts. That should not be you

So what happends when you look at the thought processes? Its thoughts talking to themselves. The you is the identification your talking about. Can you see how its not something real apart from an empty identification?

Hey man, sorry for not answering for a while. Had a really busy week.

The awareness we're talking about here is in the background of everything else. It's behind thoughts and self. They rise on it. Thus, its of a more fundamental nature. Then you become aware of awareness, and thats a powerful ...

Watching the mind this way really makes you sleepy, yes, me too. Its because you let go, thats the only way to fall asleep, i.e. allowing the process to just happen on its own. Theres nothing you can do to sleep right? Trying to sleep only makes it much harder. The eyes work the same way, just relax ...

You cant watch thought with thought mate. When you say you have driften, do you mean you fell away from what you were supposed to do? Your identification with thought is really strong if you see it like that. Just drop it all. Thoughts rise independently of you, they just rise. Just try to see them ...

I tried again two or three times. First thing by your statement tha "You can never stop or control the thoughts, because that which you refer to as you is a mental concept that points to nothing" one of my doubts about controlling thought got cleared intellectually. Since when 'you' itself is a ...

Whats happening Santosh? How is it going?

I was trying what you told. That is to "be present". I could be present for not more than 20 or 30 seconds. Even when I was present, the feeling that me is watching the fan running, sounds coming from the road or sound of construction happening in next ...