1) Is there a me at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

The "me" is not an actual reality. It only appeared to consciousness and an demanded attention. It was a magic trick that sought focus and attention and formed a personality that was identified with. My entire history was ...

Cam I answered all the questions earlier today but apparently after all that work they weren't posted. I will try to get back to you tomorrow. Thanks, Pierre

Cam,
Thanks for the pointing. Circumstantially nothing has changed, still experiencing some physical symptoms, but they and everything else mean nothing to me. "I" appear to be a contextual field in which the same things appear but are no longer personal. Strangely, I no longer have the desire to ...

Cam -RT

Acknowledged. I have had what experentially is a massive breakthrough. The minds obsessive seeking has been undermined. Not by more thinking, even about this, but a deep exhaustion. I thought I needed to seek. to figure things out etc....But it's all just the minds game. I no longer want ...

So are you saying that:

The body responds to thought......whatever it is and without any ability to determine if its reality or not

Thought is not reality......it's just judgement that arises based on the assumption of a self and how anything effects this self

So the sensory experience of ...

Outside of a thought, belief or memory....where or what is Pierre"

Brilliant question! The answer is nowhere. It seems that a "pierre" started with a thought, that was believed and turned into a memory.

With thought and sensations:

Where is Pierre? Always in the body. A vague, sensory experience ...

This I know:

There is no self without "thought".
There appears to be a self with thought.
Emotions/sensations are experienced, but there not "my experience" unless thought is added to them.
- They are more difficult for me to "not think about and make personal."

"THERE IS NO THINKER OF THOUGHTS ...

Do I exist?

Sometimes there is a quiet mind that relaxes and doesn't see a ME, primarily because I am not thinking about a me and there is a level of contentedness in this experience. But, there is also the experience of being self focused and a level of doubt about the certainty of no self. Its ...

Thanks for your help!
It seems that I lost the simple seeing of no self and was back on the merry go round of trying to figure it out, trying to change my experience, looking over past insights etc... so tired of the desperate bullshit that repeats itself over and over. I think I just wear the ...

I can see that fear as at the root of the illusion of a self.
- the foundation and glue that motivates one to focus on a self for fear of losing the self.
- it sustains the illusion through concern about the illusion
- its ironic that this loss is impossible since there isnt a self to begin with ...

Got some needed rest. Whats driving these thoughts?
Fear that this will never change, that my body is so unpredictable. there is an expectation that these physical symptoms should'nt be here, a resistance and an attempt to control then through thought. The mind compares the freedom experienced ...

1) Is there a me at all?
Right now, thoughts and sensations are happening to a me that is exhausted and perplexed.I cant seem to see through it right now. What was clear a few days ago when I saw the absence of a self now seems distant. Perhaps due to the extreme fatigue Im presently experiencing ...

When my mind is quiet there doesnt appear to be a me. Obviously, when I am trying to change my experience the me seems more prevelant. I can see through most thoughts and emotions, but when I experience long term sensations/limitations in the body it seems personal and I think there is an underlying ...

I just realized that the only way emotions or sensations can be "personalized" is through believing /identifying with THOUGHT. They are just undefined energy without thinking their mine. So I guess self is believing I am a person......and therefore personalizing anything.

Being an "obsessive seeker" allows me to post every day! lol
How is the self built up?
Self is built up through an identification with thought/beliefs. "I" then base my identitiy, worth on how well I perform or don't perform. I do this by simultaneously judging outward circumstances and internal ...