Hello Cam!
Just one more thing on nr 4 and illusion:
Life plus you = illusion
Life minus you = truth

:-) so just take out 'you' from the equation and there it is!

Nr 5: what made me really see?
That was when you told me to really examine what or who is in control. It became so obvious in an ...

4) How would I describe this to someone?

"Hey buddy, wanna ”unbite the apple” and reclaim paradise? (even though we never, none of us, ever left ;)

To unbite the apple is to get unplugged from the illusion of “you”, which is huge freedom. Life continues just like before, but there is silence but ...

Thank you, thank you Cam. I am the sky, the rest is just the weather. That's great!!

Breaking the connection to the thoughts ... that's the job.

I'll keep up the breaking-of-connection-work. Take care you too, and thanks for all your time and care. Get back to you tomorrow.

ok back here, thanks for showing up at Facebook Cam. I feel so much love and gratitude for the work you volunteers do!

.. intellectually i know i will not find anything behind that feeling, but an empty, meaningless thougth, neurons at work .. but its like i really want to SEEE ...

... oh shit, this "me not being good enough" is SO strong and there is a lot of fear, fear of not being good enough. That thought has been a very strong motive power in my hole life, the propelling force ... creates very strong feelings of fear which makes me want to throw up right now. I will stay ...

Now, a few hours later, with an intense looking at what appears to be happening i do see that the doubts are nothing but neurons at work, creating old familiar thoughtpatterns that are just ... nothing at all! Empty,nada!

Where is the "I" watching the books in the shelf in front of me? But no ...

Cam, there is a lot of doubt kind of concealing the view now. Even though life is still peaceful, thoughts like "shit, I thought I had crashed the gate" and "of course it couldn't be this easy" come in the way. Also I have this exptectation of life being really easygoing and wonderful (like it was ...

3) How does it feel to see this?

I feel peaceful (if that is a feeling ..?) There is rest, there is no stress, there is humour and laughter like never before. Life goes on just like before but there is kind of "no agenda", or at least very little. I am amazed at how i can just sit att watch ...

Hi Cam-RT!

I have had the house full of people as my sister-in-law and her kids have visited me and my three teenagers the last couple of days so it has been quite busy so to say. Perfect situation of exploring and diving into this revolutionary new way of experiencing life. Nobody notices anything ...

I will answer the questions. It will take some days or so ...

no rebecca never existed, just a thought-cloud with a name. There was no sudden realization, it came gradually over the day as i practised the intensive looking as you suggested. The "thought-cloud of me" kind of dissolved little by little and now there is quietness instead, its very still here ...

Many thanks for great feedback and pointers Cam-RT.
I have been sticking to the process of trying to see What is acting as rebecca, what is watching the trees, what is smelling the roses, what is breathing, walking,what is moving the fingers over the keyboard, and i discover that nobody is doing ...

Its getting quite intense and the body sensations (ie fear) are strong, almost makes me throw up as i "click the + button" zooming in and looking very, very close at those sensations and what is behind them. This overwhelming sense of ickyness stops me from going "all the way", even though i know ...

Hello Cam, good evening here.
(i live in sweden)
I am definitively devoted and will try to write once a day. I will do my absolut best to be honest.

Rebecca never existed, well, intellectually i know that is true, and how does that make me feel ...

Its a little strange but i get physical ...