Hi Douglas, due to family and personal commitments I need to take a break from guiding for a while - one of the other guides will be taking over from me - good luck !

An impatience , a need for approval , a flag I can plant in the ground " liberation conquered"
A trophy a victory are the feelings going thru me ,
It would be like claiming a piece of kosmos , impossible.
I have a rule I never start anything I can't Finnish and there bad luck for that rule no start ...

Hi Tundra - I am pleased to say that 3 other guides have confirmed that you are done ! I will pm you to let you know what happens next.

The impotence of the self to be doing anything other than looking out at the sky at that moment though reveals that the self is simply the angle from which you view the universe as present becomes past.


One question is that here you refer to self - could you clarify what is meant by the above ...

Thanks Tundra - will point some other guides towards this thread and see if anyone else wants to ask you anything.

All the best,

Jim

OK Tundra, here are some questions for you to answer:

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? how about self, is there anything that is separate from everything else?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it ...

"Thoughts are constantly "being correct" in relaxing any wrong thoughts."
What I mean by that is that if I think of something I know to be false, my brain seems to be correcting the falsity without any "effort", like it's automatic. A similar thing happened when I tried to cease ever lying again ...

I'd like to report something new , as I've been traveling with the grief something opened up today , there was a giddiness some nausea so I checked it out thru some looking in and saw the obvious there's never been a self it's like an empty shell looking out into all experiences.
So today I can ...

Well I haven't felt like I've "popped", but I feel like I'm quite possibly through. I feel just amazing all the time; stress free, positive, no negative emotions about my past (guilt or shame or whatever) nor about things I'd just done wrong. Thoughts are constantly "being correct" in relaxing any ...

Let's carry on .

So I'm experiencing grief , what's coming up are 2 fears :
the fear of dying and the fear of abandonment.

When I look there's pain and vastness.there's a thought sensation "I want to be soothed I want the pain to stop"
There's that greater connection without an I .
Another word ...

How you getting on Tundra ? I will try to check in tomorrow, have a wedding to go to ! Back Sunday.

What have the seen / found / experienced ? Did you find that elusive 'anti-santa' yet ?

So sorry to hear about your friend Douglas.

I'm looking at the resistance to see if anything or anything is creating it
sure enough even that is just arising there's nothing pushing the resist button,
so I can let the resistance be, there's a softening around it because there's nothing separate ...

You are very welcome Douglas !

The fear is still there.
It's not stopping me from looking.
The fear is arising , it's just there,
I can't claim it as mine , there's no beginning or end to it,
It exists as an continuum ,there's nothing to be afraid of it's just there,

It sounds like you are ...

Thanks Tundra - and consider this - what is there other than what is right now ? Where is the separate self, the little inner Tundra right now ?

Have a good look - don't think about it ;)

Well, I from 5 days ago until two days ago I was a bit overthinking and oversearching for this, I thought I'd take a day to relax from it, so I just went around and did my thing. Of course while doing whatever I did I noticed there was no I doing those things, choosing with what to entertain myself ...