Hi Ilona,

Great to have what I felt confirmed by you :)

I'm sure I will have to write to you with questions from time to time, and I will definitely be joining the facebook group as soon as a I create an account. I'll send you a friend request under my name. I have a feeling this is just the ...

Hi Ilona,

There is no doubt, or rather there was some but that's just mind reaction and I'm not getting sucked into it, it is clearing itself up though it might take a little while. I have no problem with that, just letting things happen. Same thing goes for the reaction of the mind to all this ...

Hi Ilona,

That thing that pushed me over was when you asked me if there was ever a self, and I wrote back to you about how frustrated I was that I wasn't getting it. Then all that day I was questioning if there was ever a self and there was this realisation that there couldn't be. Then the question ...

Hi Ilona,

How would I describe this to someone who has never heard of it, but is curious? Well, its a tough thing to describe because essentially nothing happened. I would start off by saying its like the belief in a solid, controlling self is dropped. But then that implies there is someone or ...

Hi Ilona,

Feeling frustrated. I'm seeing all this, I know the answers, but I still feel like I'm identified with my self. I think there is reluctance to let go of the illusion. I mean, I know if it is an illusion there is nothing to let go of but the attachment is still there. Yes I have moments of ...

Hi Ilona,

I definitely feel something is shifting. There is more of a knowing and feeling of genevieve just being a role, a character, rather than just intellectual belief. I'll get straight to your questions.

Tell me now, is this search for the truth something that you do or is it just happening ...

Hi Ilona,

Quick update before I get to your questions. I'm still pushing against that brick wall, glad to hear its not solid because it still feels quite tough, but I think I'm making headway.

So you see that the story of genevieve is a fiction. There is real story, but the content about ...

Okay, I think I'm getting this...

I've heard it millions of times before but never really understood it fully...the mind tells stories to strengthen its sense of self. There's no actual Genevieve, nothing that can be touched that is 'me', the sense of Genevieve just comes from a constant stream of ...

Hi Ilona,

I feel like I've hit a brick wall. Everything seemed to be flowing nicely yesteday but today I just can't concentrate. Its that damn slippery feeling again, I'm trying to look at self but I can't grab hold of it. I'm going to answer your questions anyway, and maybe things will become ...

Hi ilona,

So this is what I've found when I did as you suggested.

<quote> Examine the labels for actions. See if there is really I that does breathing, walking, thinking...etc. </quote>

Okay, so I've been looking at my actions throughout the day, and asking if there is anyone actually doing the ...

Hi Ilona,

Thank you for your guidance. Next time fear arises, which I'm reasonably sure will be soon, I will do as you say and examine it.

I was at my part-time job tonight and find it is a great place to watch the way the body works automatically. I could see the way the body was just responding ...

Hi Ilona,

Playing with this idea as you suggested. It seems a lot easier to see how thoughts are mere labels, and I was able to disengage with them to a degree. Its always a slight feeling of surprise when I realise, 'Hang on, I'm just labelling this unconsciously. When the mind labels, its like I ...

Hi Ilona,

These seem like quite important questions, so I might post a few times throughout the day with what I come up with.

Now let's look at the thoughts themselves. Regardless of content, where do thoughts come from?

My first reaction to this question was that thoughts arose from whatever I ...

Hi Ilona,

Thanks for your previous reply. That's a relief to know there aren't any 'meditation criteria' I need to fit. I do really want to see this through to the end however, so I will do my best and answer honestly any questions you ask me.

I know the theory, and the 'correct' answers to your ...

Hi Ilona,
I'm at uni at the moment so I will consider this through the day and write back tonight.
Peace,
Genevieve