wow, confirmed as free being!
yesterday I had doubts, No more!
let's go then...

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, there never was, only an illusion, a big one, called a belief in a ME, with loads of needs.

2) Explain in detail what the ...

Dear Ingen,

sorry for the delay, I have been thinking a lot since `i saw your mail...
I wonder if I am really through... nothing noticeable happened to "me", other than some kind of sudden eye infection since yesterday (since I see?), and some emotional bursts in form of tears, feelings of ...

Wonderful. Don't count on it though that there will always only be good feelings.

I know, and I expected so. Life has to go its own way, with hard times, good times. only difference is the fight is fought at the moment it's needed, you don't drag it along anymore, nor build anger, resentment, and ...

No, of course not. the Me was the essence, the spiritual being, the wind.

I keep discovering new things, new lights. I had a great moment this morning, after an extremely bad night which I didn't sleep.
I was grumpy on time to go to work, but then I realized I was blaming the world and all for ...

I believe that somewhere I lost track of the reality, who I am really, as my constructions of self only tend to hide the real me.


Could you say something about this statement in the light of your new discoveries?


the answer to my quest is in this statement "constructions of self only hides the ...

Can you find a you that could be drowning in thoughts? Is there a self that is not these thoughts?
No, only thoughts whirling in and about, trying to built a miserable self, a small ME, taking all the attention.
thoughts are all around, it's fun to look at them, yes.
it becomes easier...wow.
it ...

Dear dear dear...
today, I understood many things you mean. I managed to OBSERVE thoughts coming, playing and going to another field or subject. as you said, like clouds, dark or white, it comes and go!
I understood there were unrelated, fun thoughts, and others trying to involve the self as an ...

That's fine. That was a good thought then.
what about ambition? thoughts of getting better in all levels of life? why trying to get better if we are alive, fully?

Don't try to get rid of thoughts. (Haven't I written this before?)
Look at thoughts like you look at wheather: White clouds come and ...

Impulses trigger thoughts. Quite mechanically.

if there is no me, there are no impulses, then no thoughts?!

But. I want to make sure you don't use this as a technique to make you feel better. This won't work in the long run, because the "self-ing" thoughts are precisely those which lead you ...

What is there when you don't look? When mental state no.2 is happening, thoughts are streaming in, and you forget to look?
Is there a you doing this thinking? Is there a you that can "get lost in thoughts", or is it just the thoughts which are there, until they disappear again?


there are ...

If you look closely: Are these two Marcs really two sides of a self? Or just two thoughts (with sub-thoughts) that trigger two different feeling states?

just 2 thoughts, you are right. 2 thoughts triggering 2 different states, an anxious feeling, and a peaceful one.

Is there somebody who is ...

How do you experience self in your life right now?

to be frank and honest, as a duality.
I'll try to explain the best I can.
I feel a separation between 2 Marc since a while. Before I come here, but more since.
I feel self as a heavy thing pulling me into thoughts, that I started to look at more ...

Can thoughts be suppressed?
no, merely repressed. it keeps coming, unruly and unexpected.
Can you come up with a thought that not caused by anything? Or is it possible to trace all thoughts back to impulses from outside or from the past?

yes, it looks like all can be traced back to something ...

"There is no entity "self" behind these thoughts. These thoughts are all there is to a self. They circle around nothing. Actually, they are the self. Or, better said, they are self-ing"

you say: there is no entity behind, but then you say they are actually the self.

hence the self is no entity ...

I'd say they come from emotions?!
I am angry right now, and I relish in this anger, I think about what makes me angry and pose as a victim of life.
they are coming from a feeling of loss, they keep telling wrong things about who I am.
I don't know what my next thought will be, and yes I have ...