Hello again Graham,

There have been a few days of muddled thoughts but today they have settled down. Here are the answers to the questions.

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

Is there a 'me'? No. Has there ever been a 'me'? No, what seemed to be 'me ...

Hi Graham,

This sense of lightness is still here despite the continuation of conflict - I feel distanced from it somehow as if it is happening to someone else! It is really isn't it? It is happening to the old 'I' that can not be found!

Perhaps if getting a lot of work written down, a good idea ...

Hi Graham,
'I' have spent the last hour going through the chain of sensation / thought / emotion that has occured since yesterday's conflict. Thoughts of satisfaction had arisen that it had all been neatly recorded here. Then loss of internet connection and it has all gone! another chain of emotion ...

Thank you Graham,

The chain can be investigated by really looking at say the current emotion to see the cause thought of that emotion, and then that thought can be really looked at and the cause emotion/sensation seen, and so on.... This thought-sensation causal chain can be believed in or just ...

Hi Graham,
Is thought all there is? What about observing.... What about directly observable reality 'before' it is thought about... What about seeing, hearing, touching, smelling, tasting...


That is a good question! Observing is there and then thoughts about the observing appear. Images appear ...

Hello again Graham,

Thank you for the clarification. I realise that I what I thought I knew was only thought.
I've spent a lot of today observing just what is going on for me, and thought is all there is. Thoughts, then thoughts about those thoughts. Sensations and thoughts about the sensations ...

Hi Graham, thanks for your reply - is good that you are back online.

I think you are right, I am trying to express the unexpressable. Yes the coming and going of clarity could be because I slip into thought without noticing - that makes sense -and then I feel as if I've 'lost' it and try to 'think ...

hi Graham,
That's ok - I'm looking forward to your reply. :)

I've just realised that I capitalised MY personality. That was a mistake! Strange that a mistake should happen on that particular word. It's drawn my attention to the fact that for my whole life I have felt different to other people, always believing that they had a solid sense of who they were ...

Hello Graham,
I feel so close to getting this. I get that My personality is simply thoughts, memories, beliefs and ideas based on past experience and has no substance. Also I get that nothing is owned by people because. ...... I wrote that part about owning stuff, and then I lost it completely ...

I've read lots of threads and am halfway through the Gateleless Gatecrashers, and sometimes I get a clear sense of what it is all about and then I lose it. I'd really like a guide please. Anne.