for the first few moments nothing came up, then, reading your line of "just an imaginary character" an imaginary character is real, it exists even if only imaginary

I have looked around a bit and the site poits towards what one particular guru i listen to, Mooji, points towards. that neil is an illusion so I am open to exploring that and will leave expectation behind

how I came here to this website, I saw this mentioned on another website and figured i would give it a try. about myself I have been on the spiritual path since i was 16, which was twenty years ago, and have practiced many techniques and read many books. Have done a bit of meditaion, mantras, and ...

and willing to see what can happen.