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yes... i am noticing differences... and things keep revealing themselves to me as the days go by, so i will report what i noticed until now and maybe more in the days to come...

1. i seem more happy... not tortured by thoughts
thoughts have room in me, they don't mean anything... and if i ...

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

There is no 'me'... there is no 'other'... the idea of me existed but that was never me
i see clearly but it is not "i" that sees
seeing just sees / happens
and actually there is no seeing at all - because there is no ...

hello sweetness : )

so much to report : )

I wanted to share with you that since that inquiry where i looked in the mirror and cannot any longer believe that that is me, life feels so different... i mean everything is the same just not the same...
there is no one to protect, or defend... this ...

Hi Ilona,

yes, i am here. I just was traveling : )
thank you for checking-in : ) so kind of you...

I have been sitting with your question...

mmm... it seems that there is no free will or decision making...
I mean 'this one' just moves and acts and speaks, when the command is fired or when the ...

Dear Ilona,

something shifted as i was inquiring into your questions this morning.
i can see that i am part of nature, of what is...
the mind just comes in just a few milliseconds after the direct experience of life and describes or narrates what has just happened and adds a whole interpretation to ...

Hi Ilona,

The direct experience of music is so different than the mind coming-in afterwards and trying to describe it... music is like ... an experience... and hard to describe...

when music is heard no-one hears it... it is more like one experience of hearing as you say...
and there is no gap ...

ok... thank you... i'll continue here... through the stuck-ness

if there are no labels "my life" becomes part of the whole, it doesn't belong to me... it's just like nature happening...
and there is no center, everything is center...
and i can't really find a separation between here and there ...

does it need a manager? does brain need instructions how to run the body?
No, it functions on it's own

can it be that brain has created an image, labelled it "I" and now everything is seen through "I lens".
i suppose it's possible..

what is here if there is no label?
just life

does life goes ...

I is linked to the body, how?
This life seems to revolve around this body. Since i am a child people address me, find me, in relationship to this body. If somebody hits this body, i feel the physical pain more than if they where to hit another, or a plant, or animal...
(although i am getting a ...

... who is the one that believes the "I"? (the I thought that arises)

isn't the one that believes the I (the believer) a separate self? or is believing just an involuntary happening?

"I" am taking a shower... in that moment I believe that i exist:
I am the body
I am doing something
I exist in time ...

this is what i'm discovering:

i noticed i had the thought to take a shower
and i thought i will inquire into the questions you asked while in the shower
then while showering, there is no-one there... just showering happening... washing hair, turning on more hot water, etc.
but i am not there to ...

This is what i'm noticing... the thoughts just appear out of nowhere... sometimes thoughts appear not in words but rather images (of people or 'future' actions i will take, or things i will say for example). These images are also like thoughts and they also appear out of nowhere...
so in that, i can ...

Thank you... this is very helpful what you wrote...

my expectations:
i expect to wake-up
to end suffering in my life
to never suffer again
to have everything go my way from now on
to be at peace
to find love
to be happy at last and that that be forever
to never be alone again
to get out of this ...

Hi Ilona, I am here... found my thread : )

list of what I want seeing the truth to be like:
serenity
stillness
clarity
a constant state of love
presence
happiness
eternal communion with the beloved
being cared for nurtured
being safe
to know myself... to know all other
peace

what I don't want ...

Hello,

My friend Marty sent me a link to you.
I've felt a strong resonance to inquiry since my early 20's and have used self-inquiry for some time.
Everything in my life is about self-realization and i am happy to be here to have this opportunity to explore this with you at this time.
jasmine