(Hm. It says the message has been sent, but it's still in the "outbox" and not in "sent messages". Has it really been sent then? If not, please give a note here.)

Thank you so much, Patrick! You're a great guide and I'm truly very, very grateful for having had this connected conversation!

The colour of my eyes has shifted to a darker blue... =)

Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, only as an idea, not in reality, not as any sort of separate entity with a life of its own. Never was.

Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works.

As babies we are ...

Yes. There's just a peace underneith all experiences. It's very much a sense of coming home while everyday life is just what it always was. And so much more joy and smiling. Thoughts become more like objects and even though there's habitual emotional reactions to some "I-thoughts" it's impossible to ...

Reading through our conversation. Backing on some of your questions where I feel things are bubbling up.

Is there anything trying to protect 'you' ? If so, what?

How is it to know that there is no one in control, that you are completely at the mercy of life itself. How is this for ‘you’? Is this ...

Yes. The meaning is glued on later. Magical is just another word for mind-boggling events. Existence is a wonder as it is. Brings awe anyway... such events...

The lovemaking is coming back also at times... emptiness loving its forms... Movement, sound, vibration creating like a friction against the ...

Grateful for this process. It's new. It was given for free last time. This time it's eating itself into the beliefsystem, and I can sense the burning. Life presenting situation after situation where this seeing is "tested". How much is allowed before the "I" starts protesting too intense and the ...

Sorry, it's just a mind melt down here and it's not pretty. I'll come back when I have something of value to report.

What are you still looking for?
What are you trying to find?
What is not here yet?
Is there something missing?
Is it possible that something is missing in the moment?

The resistance gets furious here at times, attacking with tricky questions that 'I now should be able to answer' or it's not for ...

Oh, this strange, funny feeling again, when talking to "others". Talking to a ...?.... believing itself to be a someone although not.... how it expresses itself as 'characters in belief'... and the softness and sweetness talking to them. And the surprise everytime they answer, seeing what it will ...

Glimpse during the morning. Started crying, identifying as a victim, but just a few seconds later the great Joy came and laughed. Paus. Crying starting again - immediate Joy underneith. A feeling of silliness in trying to keep up the belief in the struggling victim while giggling. Feeling really ...

This Mooji vid also came to me as a gift today. Watching it is quite powerful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3xCmSNb_sc

Bodily sensations, that started yesterday evening and continues today is having like a fist in the stomach punching and punching from the inside. Very strange.

Thanks.

Ok. I see what you're aiming at. The mind is too quick. When the knowing and memories comes first it feels like I don't stand a ghost of a chance looking directly afterwards. It all becomes mental constructs and I see truth shown in pictures or visions and a cover of thin cloth over it ...