Is there anything missing in this now moment? Is there any search for something else?
In the now moment, no mind, nothing is missing, nothing else required. When the mind comes up, there is still the idea that more is possible, there is always more to learn and more to experience in the 3d world ...

Yes, it is a story about character Mark. In every moment created slightly different, depending on the moment. But was that you ever? Or it was always just a story?
In taking an honest look at the now moment there is only the now moment. Can not say for sure what was or will be. What was is the ...

Body is real in terms of direct perception. It can be perceived here and now. But, what is ego?
Right. Seems like ego is an individual, localized, bound, container of awareness that hides our true nature. It doesn't seem like ego and unbounded awareness can exist at the same time. Ego is me, me ...

Namaste El,

Is there a gateless gate? :)
What gate? I don't see a gate. ;)

Was there you ever?
What used to be "take an honest look at whether or not there is a me" is now just awareness being aware of itself. In the now moment there is awareness and physical vehicle, i.e., this body. It still ...

Namaste El,

Great :) How it is going today?
Today has been quite interesting. Very busy with the day job. When I took time to look I noticed a shift. It seems like it is different and not different. If I look within (no me), pure awareness; consciousness is vast, powerful, peaceful, euphoric ...

How can it be different? How can any sense, any perception be outside of the awareness?
It can't. That much is understood.

Body and body-perception belong are also in awareness. Look this way in actual life and see how it works.
Yes that also makes sense. Awareness is what is.

Don't get lost ...

Namaste El,

It seems that there is still some gap between you and the world.
Yes

Be it awareness or whatever it is – it is perceived to be on one side and world, rest of the life on the other.
Look if it is really so? Can it be so? When you close your eyes can you feel clearly border between ...

Hi El,

Below are the answers to your latest questions but a previous statement of yours continues to intrigue.
Awareness is in this moment containing all that appears.
Excuse the pronouns, it's easier this way. I can intellectualize about the meaning of this. At times I can almost get a sense of ...

Om
Hi El,

You are always right there to respond and help. Great appreciation.

Just to clarify this a bit more. Is the self awareness? Is the awareness “I”? Is it personal?
How about self? Is there a self?

Thanks for the chance to dive deeper into this. No individual, personal or otherwise, is ...

Hi El,
Nice to hear back from you so soon. I was already wondering how to put this to words but here goes...

Does it feel liberating?

Liberating? Hmmm. It is subtle. There is not any dramatic feeling of something new. The flow of awareness, of life, continues and feels very natural, very ...

Hi El,

Finally the weekend has arrived and I can rest for a couple of days. I am not ready to put aside meditation as yet. For now it is a spiritual laboratory that I enjoy a lot.

As I mentioned earlier, I continue to look as I awaken in the morning. This morning, as before, there was a lot of ...

Yesterday the feeling of nausea came while looking in meditation. Today it came while just reading the intro paragraph on Ilona's Start Here blog. So far it hasn't told me anything, just a big knot in my stomach. Thanks for your suggestions. I am not giving up.

Namaste El,

Been working long hours. Didn't even turn on the computer yesterday. Got up at 2:30 this morning and enjoyed meditation time and some time for this.

I was feeling stuck so I went back to day 1 and with the intent to do an honest looking. Nausea and a tightness in my gut came up. I ...

Is there you having a feeling, or it just a feeling?
Does the body have an experience, or it is part of the experience?
On looking a you is not found but the feeling is there. Seems that the body is part of the experience. All this still feels tired. This body should go to bed early tonight ...

Namaste El,

Fear is always a pointer
Not easily getting back to that feeling. Seems like it was the fear of stepping out into the unknown resulting in the disappearance of me. That same emotion doesn't really come up now. It was mild and addressed then and not really showing it's head now.

Most ...