Thank you doesn't quite cover it, but thank you anyway, Vince!

One of the things that you can expect is that brain conditioning (habit) will bring up lots of things but with the difference that you will see it happen and as a result that may be the last time it will appear. Sometimes it takes repeated exposure to erase it, but only for the really ingrained ...

A process that helped me greatly during the early days was to find what i named 'the sweet spot'
It involved me looking for a recognition that what IS in my direct experience is just THAT!
WHAT IS, IS!, and THAT IS THAT!
There is no choice about now. (anything actually)
Now is a done deal, so ...

Thought processes:
Doubtful
It's not here yet
In the crevasse

How does it feel?

Sticky. As in stickiness of identification.

Now it feels as though there *is* an expectation of liberation (although I hesitate to separate it and call it a thing--feels like barking up the wrong tree). The ...

I question everything about liberation, or maybe I feel myself dropping that idea. I have a former idea of it, but that seems to have subsided. Not finding any expectations.

So I guess I can't compare that to now, but I can report on now. No 24-hour cosmic consciousness here. Just variation. There ...

Part of the digging in was Byron Katie's inquiry for about three years. That brought me consistently to "Everything, and beyond that, nothing." That was about two years ago. Self seems to unraveled since then.

The reading was the usual stew of Krishnamurti, Eckhart Tolle, Nisargadatta Maharaj ...

From digging in, but I've also read about it.

Self is a conglomeration of thoughts.

I guess thoughts stick to thoughts, making a more complex structure. Belief is the glue? A simple thought is "there's a butterfly." But a human identity is made up of many thoughts glued together by belief, constantly changing but maintaining an essential ...

There is everything, and behind that, nothing. There is not a location for it unless I can call it everywhere and nowhere.

I'm very curious about what happens here and drawn to see what comes up in questioning.

Thanks,
Julie