Kris
So, how does it feel to be liberated?

HA! I wish I knew :)

What is that "pure attention"? What is that, if drop all ideas, you read about that before? Your direct experience? Expeerience just NOW, this moment? Look, Truth is very simple, it is what you have NOW. Investigate in relaxed way, but look behind ALL ideas, all thoughts. What is there?

Later in ...

To make our interaction successful I would suggest you to post at least once per day. Don't worry about me - I'm all yours here.
cool, I will try to do that, thank you!

Can you observe a thought at the middle of its way to your awareness?
Can you predict what your next thought will be?
Can your ...

I don't want to post when I have nothing new to say, and of course there are billion questions I've already asked, but it seems intellectual understanding didn't and won't bring me one step closer to this. I'm still very wrapped up in my ego and the self, and can spend literally days in this cocoon ...

Can you find "driver" anywhere? Behind tree, cloud, man, inside?
When Im looking, I see only well working mechanism of life, what do you see?[/quote]

I agree, as I said I don't see anything driving existence. In nature everything flows naturally as it should. In the forest nothing is out of place ...

If you can, go to the nature, observe what drives all around - clouds, trees, people.
Time to be sure.
That's a tough question, not sure what you mean by "drive"? Asking what "drives" people? has a different meaning to me then what drives clouds?. But there is nothing I see which drives existence ...

And one more thing - drop your expectations about liberation

yes, I think this might be the problem. I look at your questions and examine. I see that I can look but no looker is required, and I see that I can type but it just happens but then I immediately wait for "something" to happen. Some big ...

Still here .... nothing has really changed. The understanding is only conceptual. There are moments where it seems extremely obvious and peaceful, and immediately thoughts begin popping up to almost sabotage it. When I get to that point of "ah I got it", immediately I think....if there is no I who ...

"Every thought is not you. Is thinker is needed for thought to arise?
Every belief is not you. Is believer needed for belief to be?
Every thinking is not you. Is thinker needed for thinking to take place?
Every question is not you. Is questioner needed for question to arise?
Every LOOKING is not you ...

"This liberation is not from thoughts, anxiety, feelings and all this stuff in your field of attention. This liberation is only FROM BELIEF, that YOU exist as a separate entity. And that is all."

I guess I've always considered thoughts to be part of the ego and thus not real or substantial. It ...

Garsius
I've read "Three Pillars of Zen" and "Zen Mind Beginner Mind" when I was still a teenager and questions of who am I? and why am I here? have not left me since then(15 or so years). However the last few years, watching videos of people like Adyashanti and Tony Parsons, that message resonated ...

..... for a long time