Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!

These questions reminded me to tell you a few things in case I never come back to this again. I’m telling you in case it is of assistance to you. It may not be. Many, many things headed me in the right direction but below I’ve listed the key moments ...

In your honest direct experience, is there a you (keeping in mind I already know you it intellectually)?
No me. We are way, way beyond an intellectual understanding.

What specifically is different to before?
It’s hard to explain because I have no idea what is going on around here. There is no ...

Just wanted to check in to say that it turns out that it was lived the whole day today. Actually for the first time in the last four years my intense search has ended. Relief, relief, relief. The desire to pursue anything has completed. There is a curiosity about life now but it is only for the fun ...

Well, there are no shortages of mind blowing experiences.

It seems it is the illusion of control that is one the big things that locks this story in place. After I reread our posts it was 2 questions that you put to me that focused the attention again so that it could see the trick...again (by the ...

Understood. All the projects are on hold. The digging has restarted in earnest.

There are so many thoughts. Constant thoughts that keep me up at night and thoughts that wake me up early in the morning. Thoughts and thoughts about thoughts. Me is as strong as I've ever seen it ! And I think everything we covered before is forgotten (except that the body is on auto-pilot). There ...

Hi adriandc,

Thanks again for all your support and thanks for the reinforcement that it’s about actually focusing and not about the blog. I can reassure you that I’ve got this message. Apart from some of the practicalities of life, every single ounce of energy and time available to me I use to ...

Imagine a crazy imagining a dragon, and then he believes the dragon is attacking him, or the dragon is doing something, or beleiving, or creating something, what is real about the dragon? how could an illusion possibly do something real?
Nothing is real about the dragon. There is some mechanism in ...

keep your focus on this, making sure not replace your belief of self as something real with a virtual personality , as if it were real
Yes, thank you.

What creates the virtual personality?
It is one of the most beautiful abilities of the human organism to be able to conceptualize. And a concept ...

Do you honesly think of the physical body when someone says "hey Michael, you going out for a coffee?". Look deeper, is there anything being referrenced?

I was wrong. I don’t think of the physical body. I reference a virtual personality. A virtual personality is hastily put together and these ...

Thanks for that. I am very grateful for all your patience and assistance. Everything is helping a lot.

Actually, I made a mistake in my last post. I meant to say that it seems that thoughts (that come out of nowhere and are appropriate to the circumstance) are driving feelings (almost as if there ...

Ok, so the voice comes up "you just scratched your chin...but "you" didnt do, "you didnt plan it...."
What are you referring to when you are talking about this "you" that didnt scratch your chin?
The voice is referring to the same entity as when anyone else says ‘you’. i.e. if a co-worker said ...

Really, really nice analogy. Thank you.

Part of me feels frustrated with this exercise because it feels like a battle between two parts of me... but there's also an enjoyment of the frustration.

It's almost as if something is being put back in its place. There is a voice: "See! See! You just ...

What was the experience?
The experience was like knowing that every atom was connected to every other atom and that everything was perfect. There was absolutely no trace of fear of any type. I felt invincible and I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I could have and do anything I wanted and at ...

Hi Adriandc,

I'm called Michael. Can we chat here?

After a deep spiritual experience I've been an intense seeker of truth for about four years. Right now I have a burning desire to know the truth or more accurately perhaps to know illusion.

Would you assist if at all possible?

Michael