I don't know what happened today but I spent the day really busy and forgot to spend anytime alone and in investigating. I again have a very strong sense of identity back. Blast, I don't know why this belief in a separate me is still there after all the work I have done on myself. I thought I had ...

I want to thank you for your help with this. You have pointed very directly and clearly. Something was felt very soon into the discussion.

Thank you again

Daniel

Well, the resentment is not there right now but if I look back, they were just thoughts. I can't really describe in much more detail than that. I guess the belief still lingers and hasn't lost its momentum in spite of having seen something. The resentment is there when it is thought about and a well ...

Ok, I just want to clarify this a bit. You say there is no me, apart from memory. So, are you your memories?
Can you answer your own question, "what am I without these referentials?" are you nothing? Or does "you" just not exist, there is a subtle difference? Can you explain how, even after seeing ...

1) Is there a you, at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?


There is no me apart from memory, loads of things are here, space, thoughts, feelings, memories but if I ask of each one: Is that a me? I again find that the refer to me but what am I without these referentials? Nothing. I used to ...

Today as thoughts arose about me, I kept remembering that they point to "something" that can't be found. Only space. They are thoughts about space. Haha! It's really weird. I have spent three years doing self-inquiry, reading everything by Ramana Maharshi and reading it all the wrong way. I was ...

Thank you, I will ponder this. The sense of doer-ship has guilt, remorse, fear and self-pity attached to it.One could live better without it :). I'll be happy to see that go so I'll keep investigating and looking whilst I recognize awareness and report back.


Good night

Daniel

There is awareness. Is there an entity that is aware?

No, there is no entity that is aware. The way I discovered this was that I noticed that awareness was happening always. If it was me doing it, I would be able to stop at will. I cannot. If I try stop being aware, sounds are still heard, colors ...

As I type, there is still the feeling that there is a doer of the process. The investigation is also apparently done by me. I have heard it said that the only choice one has is where he/she places his/her attention. That seems like something that is done by me but again this me who does things is ...

I will respond to the second part of your question first if you don't mind. Judgments still come up such as "this is so unspiritual" "I should have more acceptance". These thoughts appear frequently although at times they are just allowed to be as they arise. They only have strength and power when I ...

I have sat with both questions you raised since yesterday. No matter how much I look, I can't find who it all happened to nor what remains when the personality is not active. I felt very peaceful as I was thinking about this question and looking for the answer but as soon as a situation arose in ...

You ask:
"Yes, who did this all happen to?"

and..

What is the something that remains?


I need to stay with both questions. There is a feeling of a very open space right now after reading your last email. It was very clear and direct.

Thank you so much

Thanks for your help with this.

If I tell you the thoughts that stick to the supposed identity it might help you see what my beliefs are about this separate me. For example, today I worried about my future financial and career prospects. That means that I believe that I will exist at a future time ...

My thoughts just happen, I don't plan to have them. They tend to revolve around a "me" most of the time. I take credit for them often. I can't help but being pulled in by them and believing what they tell me about the world and myself.

I am worried that I will not be able to get passed this ...

Good point. Walking is taking place with the aid of innumerable things happening that are beyond my control. The same applies to other activities such as chewing. But I can stop walking if I want to or I seem to at times. If a tiger would run after me I would arguably lose the choice to stop moving ...