Yes "I am never going to get it" is just a thought. There is no me that is thinking that.

When pointing to myself (body) with a finger I cant find any me. saying "I can't find any me" is wrong too cause there isnt any I that is looking for itself. Still, I dont feel like this is it.

That might be ...

I can't find anything that's tired or frustrated, there are just feelings, really strong ones. I'm not doing them, they just arise...I'm reading your post over and over and I'm not sure who/what puts so much importance in these thoughts. I probably put so much importance in this because lots of ...

I can't find a thing I still believe in. The self makes no sense. I don't know what else to write, I'm tired and frustrated with this shit. 99% of people who get it, say there's a huuuge difference in their life. In my there's no difference so I don't get it. And I've got no idea why.

Hey, sorry for not posting yesterday, I got so out of habit of posting here that I totally forgot.

Yes, I see that thoughts happen spotaneously, I can't find anything a self does. Everything that is done is done automatically, all the movement of the body and other decisions just happen. Just now ...

This is looking at how thought arises. You see that you are not thinking your thoughts, they occur spontaneously? You see that the thought and experience of thought are one? That there is no separation between experience and experiencer? Do you see the difference between thinking about it, and ...

Hey Dawid, Ingen isnt able to reply just now, so she asked me to take over for a bit

Do you realise that thinking about it is going to get you nowhere? If you are trying to think your way there, there will always be doubt. What you need to do is look. I guess you already know this, just wanted to ...

Hi Dawid, nice to see you again!

It looks very much like you are still thinking instead of looking.

It could be that a different guide, or several, could point you to it. I'll discuss it with the other guides.

What do you say? What does it take to get you to SEE instead of think, this time ...

Hello again. I haven't posted for a long time, because I wanted to spend some time alone thinking about it.
I can see that there is a world of thought, which is experienced only by me, and the outside world that can be experienced by anyone. I can see that a self can only exist as a thought ...

I see that there is only outside, and the "inside" world exists just in imagination, as thoughts. I see it especially while looking in the mirror.

However I say that with doubt. It feels like, if I really saw that the inside world is just in imagination then I would be liberated and I dont feel any ...

I see that there is direct perception and this objective perception. This objective perception is actually imagined, seen in the head, not direct. And there's a direct perception of the imagined perception. The only real perception is the direct "from the inside" one. I can see that.

I guess that ...

Who or what is mastering your life?


Right now, Im writing this post and Im thinking about other things Id like to do but I dont want to give you a shitty answer, so instead of watching some movies on youtube Im writing this. So, right now what Im doing is determined by my feelings. I would feel ...

Sorry for the short answer, I should put more work in this.


Who or what is mastering your life?


I would say it's "what" not "who". There isn't any self in the body, there's just the body. I believe that all decisions, all actions that I take are a result of mechanisms installed in my head ...

All these questions point to the same thing which I can't name. When I say that "I did this, I did that" it doesn't feel right. When I say for example "I did this project" it doesn't sound completly right to me. Or "I was at the university today". who was? the organism was, but ME?

recently Ive ...

In my direct experience there is no self. There are all the things that my senses allow me to see. There is the outside world, like my desk, computer, etc. in front of me. There's the body. There are thoughts and emotions. There is awareness. There is no self in my direct experience. If there was a ...

Consider the answer is "no", and you just don't dare to say it..

What I don't want is saying "yes, the self doesn't exist" and accepting this as just another belief and acting in accordance with it. Cause I think it's not the point here.