The only thing I can know for sure is that I am and what can be expienced through my senses in the present moment. Everything else is a memory of the past or a thought about the future.

If there is no self and I am already enlightened then what am I seeking? Is truth realization self actualizing? How will I know if I got it? It seems all I have to do is not identify with thoughts and see through the deception of ego. It sounds so simple. When I wake up in the morning the monkey ...

I don't understand how to look behind the fear. I can sense unease in my body, especially around my chest area. When I dwell on the thought there is no "me" thoughts arise throwing doubt on this truth. I feel trapped. Nowhere to turn. No practice of meditation or mantra or anything else I have tried ...

Looking at my fear I can see that it arises to protect my identity and the sense that I have control. Intellectually I realize there is no self, but living from that is unfathomable to me.

Fear arises when I think there is no "me". Afraid I will start drinking again, that I won't know how to act around family. I will have no control. Everything will become meaningless and I will not be creative. The world as I know it will no longer exist. No point of reference. No judgement. Afraid I ...

I am able to watch the breathing happen as an observer. I notice that I can make this body breathe faster or slower. This leads me to believe that I have some control over this body. When I lift my hand and observe it I see that I consciously made a decision to raise it and that also gives me a ...

Ilona,

My concept of enlightenment is everything I have read, and therefore second hand knowledge. I truly know nothing. I expect that my illusion that I am this body, feelings, thoughts will drop. I understand that this can be a painful process as everything I know must die. I will perceive ...

My name is J.D. I was browsing through the stillnessspeaks website and found my way here. I have read Tolle, J. Krishnamurti, Rumi, Nisargaddata, Ramana, Tao Te Ching, The Three Pillars of Zen, and much more. I am tired of the searching and not finding. I am ready.