Hey wanderer, that's it! :)
Thank you for all your time, effort, knowledge and patience, Ingen! It's very much appreciated :)

Nice investigation about your centrepoint. What happened to your "state"?
The full effects of the state have subsided, but it seems to have left a kind of 'clarity ...

Is there a watcher, or is there just a group of sensations? Is there a you?
I've been using the following pointers:

Does the centrepoint control anything?
It's clear that this is no. Sensations et. al. appear of their own accord.

Is the centrepoint a permanent entity?
Attention is at the ...

Is there a hierarchy to these patterns? Is there one pattern "thinking" the others?
No, there is not one pattern thinking the others. A pattern can be brought into existence because of the preceding pattern, one thing leads to another, but the preceding pattern does not choose to bring the next ...

Is there someone who "has" self identification? Or is the thought pattern "self-identification" happening?
Ahh, of course. Self identification is just another dose of thoughts and feelings


How is it exactly when the shift feels less prominent?
I've noticed that the shift feels less prominent ...

Consider it might be true what I am saying.
I guess I have been doubting that the recent shift in perception was 'it' because I still have some self identification. I think part of my expectations were that after the shift, seeing 'no-self' would be a permanent state of mind. The change of ...

Life is living itself. Nothing can be different than it is. You are not going to make the right ore wrong decisions, because they will always be caused by something. There is no you to decide anything. There is just this incredible intricate web of impulses. Can you see that?

Two things came up ...

That is the illusion we are trying to see through. Are they all originally yours? Did't they come from outside? Is there a boundary?
They seem to be like alien invaders that come in and take over my mind! I find it difficult to see a thought come into being, it only seems to be half way through or ...

Ok no worries Ingen, thanks for letting me know. My schedule has picked up a little bit as well. I'll keep replying here anyway as sometimes things sink in better when I write them down.

What happens to the imaginary watcher when you don't remind yourself?
Woah, this is a great pointer. When I ...

It could be very useful to state your expectations. List them all, so you get them out of the system.
My expectations at the start were:
1. A major shift in perception
2. That some hard work will need to be put in before the shift will happen.
3. The shift will have a build up to it.
4. After the ...

Right after I submitted that last post, I felt a sadness come over me. It was almost grief-like. And the cause was tha paragraph I wrote about the 'story of me'. It was like I'd given a very good case as to why 'I' don't exist and my 'self' has been shaken up by it. It feels like my 'identity' has ...

Sometimes there is sensation of space, sometimes there is pressure. Both appear and disappear, without a you being involved in this process. Don't worry about achieving a permanent experience. Relax and watch the process, without trying to change it.
I think I have been too intense with my looking ...

YES. I repeat, because it is so important: "There isn't actually any decision making process to bring forth the thoughts or emotions", can you read this again? Let it sink in.

Yes, I can see this when I look. It is yet to be a permanent experience, though. I have been turning my mind to this ...

Sense of self is not the same as self. Sense of self is an idea, a mood or something like that. Like sense of summer, sense of christmas. Real, but not referring to something substantial. Can you see if there is an "it" which produces thoughts and emotions?


I've looked and looked and can't find ...

In my normal mode of perception there is a sense that there is an 'I' controlling everything. The 'I' seems to be an energetic entity that resides mainly inside the head and chest and produces thoughts and emotions. The sense of 'I' is intricately woven together in such a way that it seems ...

I thought I had cracked it earlier. I was reading a document by Ken Wilber and something shifted (here is the link http://www.integralnaked.org/docs/infinity.doc ). I read the document a few days ago and nothing happened but I think the combination of the Direct Pointing work and re-reading the ...