Thank you, Matt.
I'd be grateful for your invitation. Please send it to facebook@crashmania.de.
To answer your questions:
1) There's no me in existence. There's an illusion of a me. It has no substance and no meaning.
2) I feel grateful that I can now understand that all my previous fears and doubts ...

Happy New Year!

In my view, "sensations" and "thoughts" are two descriptions of raw, impersonal, non-locatable data.
So perhaps impersonal sensations, thoughts, descriptions, stories, and even the image of the fictional Joachim character, can all continue without a real person behind the scenes ...

It is. Cya in 2012.









And thanks for checking. :-)

Thank you, Matt, I really appreciate your effort.
As you may have noticed, there's a very technically thinking/analytical mind working on my side, which makes it difficult for me to raise the level of my understanding of the matter from "intellectual" to "really knowing". That's what I meant with ...

1. (One more time for the record:) is there any real 'I' in any sense, shape or form?

There's no real 'I', there's just the idea of an 'I', living through self-perpetuating (pun intended) thoughts.

2. Who or what is "looking" at the absence of self?

There is no looking. There are thoughts ...

Ok, this took a while because of a lot of emotional shit from the past that had to be cleared, so please bear with me.
During the cleansing it became apparent that there never was a self, only robot-like reactions to input filtered through a mixture of expectations and memories.
I'm still digging ...

Roger wilco.

That what I call 'me' is a recurring thought that is fed by memories on the inside and affirmation by others on the outside. It feels like something real but I can't find substance behind it. The harder I try to find it, the more it feels like I'm looking at a black hole, a singularity. It feels ...

Hi Matt,

thanks for joining.

Nope, the story hasn't ended yet. There's still an 'I'.
What do I expect from the story being over? I expect the end of doubt. I expect that I really know that there's no 'I'. Right now, I understand it intellectually. But I don't know it, if you know what I mean ...

...must end here.

Can anyone help me?


/Joachim