Hi Ash,

Sorry for the delay, I've just been going with the flow.

Say more about that please... What is responsility in the sense you use the word in your response? And what is it, what is the I, that is responsible?


I forget the original question, but actually if there is no 'one' controlling ...

Hi Ash,

I hope this isn't the end of my journey - I'll miss this exploration and your wonderful style!

Either way, my answers below:

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No. There never was.
It's hard to acknowledge ...

Hi Ash,

I read your response a few days ago so I won't go into it piece-meal but I will explore my conclusion if that's ok.

What I determined from your insights is that everything happens on it's own. Even what I think of as my will - is happening on it's own.

Thus - there is no 'real' free will ...

Hi Ash,

That sometimes the seeing it...
Doesn't even always result in a chain of events that generates relief!

You see that!

Yes I see that. No relief and in fact, the reflecting may be creating more discord...
i.e 'why do I do that', 'what is that feeling', 'how can I avoid it in the future ...

Hi Ash,

Can you even see the symptoms that arose, just arose spontaneously without your permission as well?

Yes, they did arise. And there was no permission granted. Ah the spiritual clarity of Covid ;)

It sounds like that got noticed! Even the retracting back so to speak...The letting off the ...

Hi Ash,

I just watned to check in on day 1 of my recovery - I had COVID. Just like old times.

What did I notice? I didn't observe much or practice anything - I went back to youtube and news overload, and deeper into 'myself'.

I did notice the difference though, and I prefer the former week where ...

Hi Ash,

It's been a big week. My son's birthday. A bar-mitzvah, tax returns et. al.

Thank you for your patience - thoguh I don't worry about 'what arises' for you because I'm learning that that 'state' is pretty darn relaxed.

So, where were we:

It isn't another story?
To me it seems like a ...

Hi Ash,

I have been looking, reflecting, thinking.

What about the thought, the thinking about the bike being stolen?
Did that, too, happen on its own?


Yes, as a matter of fact it did. But today, I realised all the thinking I do about my 'story', is the 'me'. So if thought happened on it's own ...

Or did the shame and sadness just come? And even if a wishful thought did occur of wanting part of your experience to be different, be less edgy, be less shitty, did your experience do that? Or did it just keep unfolding according to its own will so to speak, irrespective of yours if you will ...

Hi Ash,

You asked: Can it happen where thought comes before/during/or after energy occurs in your experience? See if it is the case.

Thought is before, not during and always after the experience.

You asked: does anger or unpleasant sensations ever arise and you say "Hey, Experience! Swap out ...

Good morning Ash!

I'm not sure about the pace of this, but I will try to reply to your threads as soon as I get a quiet minute.

I am a slow-ish learner but when it clicks, it clicks - and I think it clicked so here goes:

You asked: Was thought even there? Or was that energy just energy?
No ...

Hi Ash, you can call me Jenny. Thank you for offering to be my guide. I really appreciate your work.
I'm hoping this is what you mean by using quotes:

Your question was: Using a verb or adjective, what was there in your experience?

And my answer from memory: I remember it felt like void or ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I guess I have limited understanding from a few perspectives. Energetically, we are all particals, or electrons - nothing is 'solid' and we are all part of the same energy. Then spiritually ...