Yes it’s quite clear that this “Me” sense controlling the body,
Is associated with this sense of ‘here-ness’: persistent sensations in the chest/torso. and a sense of agency that latches itself onto every action/thought etc.
and that constantly there’s this “affirming” of this sense of me/here-ness ...

Also,

It’s like, ‘how things happen’ in direct immediacy is quite mysterious really. The thoughts/sense of “I’m doing this” and also “there is no controller doing this” both kind of arise as thoughts slightly after the fact maybe ?

I can’t really “get a hold of” the immediacy in that way I think ...

Yes often as I do this, it does bring more attention to the ‘automatic nature’ of bodily movements quite clearly- like when my body is doing something physical like brushing teeth etc.. it can really seem like “it’s just happening” when I pay attention to that fact.
But then I’m not sure whether ...

Hi elad,

Yes I would say that;

There does seem to be an ‘automatic’ element to how these thoughts and impulses arise that isn’t chosen.
But then there seems to be this ability to consciously choose whether I “indulge” in a particular thought or impulse, or not.
So it feels like there is a control ...

Hi Elad,

Yes so I found that;

My thoughts are 99% of the time about managing my feelings somehow.

I have compulsive habit of daydreaming imagining myself having conversations, or living in a fantasy reality, because it gives me an emotional high, many thoughts such as this which stimulate ...

Great thank you 🙏


Hi Tom, Elad here :)

Let's start fresh. Please write me whatever might be relevant for me to know, as we start out? Wishes, fears, needs, what is clear, what is not clear, etc.


I wish to shift into perceiving existence as more impersonal so as not to suffer as much. And ...

I wish to shift into perceiving existence as more impersonal so as not to suffer as much. And the recognition of noself seems like it does that so I’ve heard. And it seems like, if this is true, then surely it should be possible for this to be seen. It should be obvious surely. But it doesn’t seem ...

Great thank you 🙏

Hello Daniel. Thanks for the reply. I would like to be guided by a guide called Elad if thats possible.

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
That the sense that there is a controller, subjective centre of consciousness in the brain/body which is directing the body, is illusory. That actuslly the body simply functions by itself pretty ...