Hi Rowena,

Thank you, I need a little time to think about this but have started going over some of your questions:

But where is this apparent motion occurring, is it even backwards and forwards?
It is only occurring in my mind, as a thought, it can't be said that it is even forwards or backwards ...

Hi Rowena,

Thank you so much! I'm trying to say bring it on but finding that difficult right now.

When I was on holiday, the entire loop stopped. I was in flow—even when we nearly missed the ferry home and my husband was stressing, I could clearly see 'this is just what's happening' and I felt ...

Hi Rowena,

It is ok to be reactive, it is just what is arising, and grasping will happen. Resistance to grasping is not allowing 'life' to be as it is.
Oh my goodness, how have I not seen this before? I have been spending so much time trying to be with the direct experience I hadn't realised I am ...

Hi Rowena,

It has been a busy few days and am now on holiday in Normandy with a large group of friends which is proving rather challenging. It seems there is lots more stuff coming up! I have been rather reactive these last few days and "trying" to see that it is just energy coming and going but it ...

Hi Rowena,

Thank you for your guidance!

More feelings arising of a want for change but hard to locate the sensation. Is it a true, natural flow of the body or just the old programme running? There was a feeling of hope that when the self was seen through that there would be more clarity but now ...

Hi Rowena,

A sudden realisation came to me whilst I was working this morning. I usually have my phone on me and I will listen to podcasts or videos but today I didn't. Loud thoughts popped up saying that I'm actually quite bored and this thought kept coming up along with a feeling of being cooped ...

Hi Rowena,

Yes looking closer at the thoughts would be most helpful!

First of all, let's look at the word/concept of 'direction'. What is that in actuality?
The word direction is a concept, an idea that time is linear and we are going forwards through time but in actuality we aren't travelling ...

Hi Rowena,

I hope you are well! I have been going back to some the the practises you gave me and one of them is observing the flow of life and observing how my body signals to me which way to go but I am struggling with this a little and wondered if you could point me in the "right" direction!

For ...

Dear Rowena,

What a fun co-incidence that your farm is in Suffolk!
Yes, isn't the world a small place!

to accept the limitations we have 'imposed' upon ourselves as not meeting up to some kind of expectations, and be okay with being who we are, as we are without some kind of validating label ...

Hi Rowena,

I hope you had a good weekend, I have been very busy entertaining family! Our farm is in Suffolk too, so not far from your mum. We are Mid Suffolk though so no fires here. I hope your mum is okay, we were so sad to hear about Dunwich heath, it is one of our favourite places to go ...

Dear Rowena,

But in reality, we cannot get away from noticing, ever..... can you see that? All there is is that, (noticing).

Yes, I see that. "Trying" to notice is another thought! Noticing just happens.

My suggestion is when you are caught up in frustration, see that as a pointer: What is ...

Hi Rowena,

Noticing is effortless, if effort is noticed it is an appearance noticed! Play around with that lightly.

I played around with noticing yesterday. I was able to go into my body more often and sit with feelings of frustration and wanting things to be different. This seems to be coming ...

Hi Rowena,

I would respectfully say to forget 'compassion.' If compassion is not present, then it is adding another layer of 'self' judgment.
"I feel shitty..... and now you are saying "I" shouldn't feel shitty, I should feel 'compassionate towards myself"!!!
Thank you for pointing this out! That ...

Just to add to that, I tend to still focus on trying to feel better and not just accepting whatever I am feeling. The Awakening Curriculum has been good at highlighting the need to accept was is with compassion but I am still finding that this doesn't come naturally. There is a constant movement to ...

Dear Rowena,

Do you remember the exercise of GREEN, I think the following question is a really good one to ask oneself. "Do these thoughts have a direct correspondence to what is actually happening here and now?"


Yes I remember that task! I guess I hadn't thought to apply it to thoughts! No the ...