Thank you.

Love,
Jacki

Hi Stacy,

A lot of confusion today. About what I don't know. Very caught up in thoughts, along with a migraine.
I think I may have relaxed too much and lost alertness and focus.

You must be relaxed.

Sometimes you have to hear something a thousand times before it clicks, or you just have to be ready to really hear it.

We're watching for a shift in perception.

I'm not pushing hard like I was before. I was applying a lot of effort. Relaxing into presence. I was looking past "it." I'm just observing thoughts, not pushing and pulling on them as much. Just letting them be there, knowing they just appear and ...

Hi Stacy,

Ilona released a video a few days ago and I felt as though she was speaking directly to me.

It's directed towards the person who inquires where is the separate self and finds nothing and expects something more because it's too simple. She says that the pause after asking the question ...

Hi Stacy,

I continue to practice, that is all. Nothing new to report at the moment.
I hope you are well.

Love,
Jacki

Good work! Keep going.

Thank you for your encouragement!
It's quite surprising and exciting.

There will always be thoughts. We just learn not to believe them.

After writing the last message I went and meditated. A lot of stuff came up. I realized I was resisting a lot of things in my life. Then I realized it was all thought. I was believing the thoughts. I didn't even realize I was ...

There will always be thoughts. We just learn not to believe them.

All day long I dis-identify from thought, as much as I am able to. Staying alert, present and relaxed.
There's not much else to report. I just wanted to check in with you.

Can you find any separate self?

There are still so many thoughts. The sense of a separate self comes and goes with thoughts. When meditating, I can't find any direct evidence for a separate self. Only thoughts seem to indicate a separate self. But this is still not felt as the default.
There's ...

Hi Stacy,

The strangest thing happened. I had a heart opening for a friend. It came out of nowhere. I felt this sudden compassion for her that wasn't there before. This unbinding is revealing so much. What an interesting journey!

Also, sometimes when I look at my hands they appear to not belong to ...

You're doing great. I appreciate your dedication.

There was an opening today. Even though I've heard it a thousand times that awakening happens now, not in the future, something clicked and I realized that was true. Something was revealed. Something very subtle. A glimpse.

I remain relaxed ...

You must be present & relaxed now.

Thank you. Yes, I am present as much as possible, and relaxing into experience, whatever that may be.
Fear comes occasionally but is mild and doesn't last long.

We don't ask, "Who am I?" here for a reason. It leads you to believe there's someone to find

Thank you. I had read this article and read it again. I don't usually use this question unless it comes up in the moment.
Perhaps the problem is that I am still expecting something in the future. It's a ...

What are you expecting?

I can't be totally sure, but I expect that if I ask the question "Who am I?" it won't make any sense anymore.