Alright Stacy, thanks for the pointer. Here we go with my spontaneous answers:

So, when the view on the right is seen, do you have the ‘choice’ not to see? I’m not asking can you ‘choose’ to see something else like another view or ‘black space’ if you close your eyes. The question is; can you turn ...

Hi Stacy, thank you. I am processing this. It is going to take some days or even weeks. Warmly,

Yeah finally I see that sometimes. Not all the time, but sometimes. Seeing is happening. Breathing is happening. Everything is happening and the mind wants to get hold of everything. LOL. Plus I see that mind sees problems where there a none. LOL.

Yeah finally I see that sometimes. Not all the time, but I see that. Seeing is happening. Breathing is happening. Everything is just happening and the mind wants to get hold of everything. LOL

Loving,

Hi Stacy,

I’d like to check in with you briefly. It feels like there has been a little shift, and I wanted to share it with you.

I’m realizing that there is actually no inside and outside. It is me who creates the separation between “inside” and “outside” and somehow, creating that separation ...

Hi Stacy, how often do you recommend to do the buttchair exercise? Like three times for 10 minutes per day for example? Recently, I saw a glimpse of how my mind works and how it discerns from the direct experience when I stick with the senses.
Warmly,

All right. Great. Thank you Stacy. This helps me really a lot and means a lot to me. Thank you.

Hi Stacy, I haven't heard from you in a few days – just checking in. I've been continuing with the ButtChair exercise and sitting with what's here. Hope you're well. Warmly, Deni

Please LOOK for any place where your butt ends & the chair begins.

I can't find any beginning or end in my DE on the chair.

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?

There is only the sensation of pressure on my flesh. No clear division.

Can you see that?

Yes, I see it.

What, exactly, is your "will?"

I can't really say what is my will. My assumption of my will turning my hand was a thought arising.

How is the movement controlled?
I do not know. I assume it is my will.


Does a thought control it?
No.


Can a ‘controller’ of any description be located?
I don’t know.


How is the decision made to turn the hand over?
I don’t know. I can't spot a real controller. I can only assume it is my ...

Hi Stacy,

I can't spot a real controller. I can only assume it is my will doing this. But I can't locate the source. When I stick to my direct experience, then comes this:
Seeing my arm
Seeing my hand
Feeling the rotation in my wrist
Seeing the blue color of my shirt
Feeling lightness in the center ...

The apple itself is not the actual/direct experience. The actual/direct experience is the color, smell, taste, thought rising, sensation. „Apple“ is just a label for the manifest, that can't be found in the direct experience.

Warmly

Hi Stacy,
My mistake, I accidentally gave your name an extra "e". Thanks for the correction!

How does it FEEL (body Sensations) to see this?

A subtle sense of lightness in the center of my body.


Warmly,
Deniz