Hi Rowena,
Is it clear to you now that there is no actual separate 'self' to be found anywhere?
No, not completely. There is still a sense of “me”. I can’t always find it, but there is still an idea of myself. Sometimes it becomes weaker and more unclear, and sometimes it feels stronger again. But ...

Hi Rowena,

Do you control thoughts?

No

Do you control movements?

No

Do you control sensations?

No

Do you control attention?

No

Can you remove yourself from where you are?

No

Can you separate yourself from the space around you?

No

Hi Rowena,
How can something that cannot be located anywhere, i.e. be objectively seen to exist, no longer exist?
I know it’s more of a rhetorical question, but if I were to answer, I’d say it’s like a tangled bundle of wires that needs to be untangled. I think what you said really points to it ...

Hi Rowena,
You did not answer this question from your direct experience. There was no mention of thoughts here, and you just repeated your previous answer. I would like you to LOOK again.
While I was copying the question, I forgot that I had already answered it, and it looks like I answered the ...

Hi Rowena,
To whom or to what does this thought belong to?
Thoughts don’t belong to anyone. They simply appear and disappear.
Who or what is aware of those experiences? Is there anything, any "thing" that can be found as a separate 'entity' or personal
"I" that is aware?
Thoughts don’t belong to ...

What does "something missing" FEEL like in the body?
Like tension around the eyes, and in the facial expressions as a whole
So would you say that even though you have seen that there is no individual, separate self that exists, when you are with other people you still believe that you are a ...

Hi Rowena,
Sorry I didn’t let you know sooner. I didn’t expect everything to take this long. This past week I had to finish my exams, pay for my accommodation, pack all my things, and travel back home. But now I’m free, and I think I’ll be completely free for another month. Regarding the self ...

Hi Rowena,
Are there any doubts? If so, please describe them.
Yeah, I still have some doubts. For the past four days I’ve been looking directly at the “self,” trying to see what’s actually there. Like before, I noticed that what I call “me” seems to be made up of two things: the body and thoughts ...

Hi Rowena,
Please look really carefully here at all the sense fields:
Can habit be found in any sense field other than thinking?
No
Is there a division to be found between the seer and the seen?
No
Please find a 'someone" or a 'something' that can be found divided from direct experience.
I can ...

Hi, Rowena.
How do you relate to 'your' thoughts?
Are they 'your' thoughts?
How do you relate to 'your' emotions?
Are they 'your' emotions?
It’s quite a tricky questions, because when I look at direct experience, there isn’t anyone that thoughts belong to. There are only thoughts. The same is true ...

I hope the power comes back soon! And thank you for helping me on this journey 🙏

Hi, Rowena
So what is it?
It is something appearing as an experience, so look to body sensations, particularly around the head. If you find something, just notice it for what it is.
So, I’ve been thinking about this and observing it for quite a while, and I’ve found this feeling right around the ...

Wow, its been 8 days? Time really flies.
I’m genuinely sorry I haven’t been able to respond. I’ll definitely reply tomorrow. I honestly didn’t realize how much time had passed. It feels like it was only 2 or 3 days ago.
As for news, something strange has been happening. I’ve developed this almost ...

Good luck with your studies!

Thank you very much!

Hi Rowena,
I wanted to apologize in advance because I won’t be available for at least the next 2 days. My studies are taking up almost all my time right now, so I barely have any left for self-reflection. I promise I’ll reply to everything once I’m free.