Hey paz, just finished up my exams/university responsibility for this semester. There was a lot of noticing the feelings and where they are in the body. Still plenty of resistance too.

Lucas, if you have been practicing sensory awareness, now try this for your next few practice sessions:
After ...

If you were to set aside time to practice only for at least 20 minutes each time, twice per day using the program I sent, I think you would find noticeable benefit. If it occurs to you to practice while walking to class, standing in line, brushing your teeth or any other time, the benefit would ...

how much time have you been dedicating each day to just relax open your senses and body awareness to what is happening in the moment?

not enough. I planned/made a routine to spend 1-2 hours dedicated of sitting/relax open but there is still aversion to actually doing it. Usually just 15-30minutes ...

... will keep you posted!

(is what was supposed to be the ending 😁)

Aw i completely missed this before I went to class today. Sorry to keep you waiting.

For what its worth, I didn't even know I was suffering before that became clear.
there is still a lot of doubt thoughts and seeking popping up, and doubt about this not being clear, but it is just more of the ...

Hey, welcome to the U.S., such as it is now. De donde vienes? Your english is certainly as if you were born here.
Haha! Thank you for the welcome :) I was born in Brazil and moved over when I was around 9, which makes me feel decidedly not Brazillian and not American which is neat!

About those ...

Hey Pablo!

I also just came back from a little weekend trip back home. Went in for my citizenship interview :)

One of the things that has become more apparent these last couple of days was seeing and feeling anxiety/stress. Before my interview I knew there was nothing to be nervous about and it ...

Yes, enjoy your trip!

when/if there is identification with thought, is there a "you" that is doing the identifying, or is identification itself just another passing event?
and if there is dissatisfaction with identification, is there a "you" that is dissatisfied, or is dissatisfaction itself just another passing event ...

OK, thanks.
So where is the thought identification?
This is a good question. There is the presence of thoughts, but no thought-identification. So what I mean by thought-identification is when thoughts keep streaming in, thoughts about thoughts. Once this happens, there is another thought 'I was ...

did “you” consciously choose to pause before you paused, or did it just happen?
nope, whenever the pauses do happen, same as the thoughts to 'do it', it was never caused by 'me'.

did “you” choose to have that doubt?
Did that doubt affect “your” actions (eg writing about it, having memories of ...

When you say ‘seems’ true, do you mean it fits logic and evidence, or …?

yes that it fits logic, but also that if I pause, and take some time to look at the moment, then sometimes I can say that it is true based only on experience. as i write this, there's a lot of doubt about whether this has ...

On the other hand, if you completely trust that there there is no self within Lucas' skin that is doing anything, we can just use normal language.

this, like other non-duality related things, 'seems' true sporadically, not as a new default way to live, or as a thing known to always be true. So ...

Nice. What is not coherent about it?
what i think i meant there was that it felt very circular reasoning ish. the doubts that the actions aren't authentic not being present would mean the actions are authentic, however it is only the presence of the doubts that makes the actions not authentic ...

Thank you again for the replies, and staying with me.

first, thank you for the preceding paragraph where you say what the problem is not.
So what might really be the problem?

first thought that popped up was that the problem is that 'my' experience is not like 'your' experience. and I think it ...