Great - thanks Rali - i appreciate that and welcome any further questions or clarifications :)

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No!

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

Everything in experience ...

Yes please!

So let's review where we are at with the following questions.

What has changed and what hasn’t in normal everyday living. What changes? What stays the same?

There is a lightness – a sense of freedom and slight relief. A sense that the system will continue to reset. Otherwise all seems the same ...

Thanks Rali! Just back from a busy few days with others and now back home.

Ive been checking this out between things, while driving etc

Now let’s apply that to you. That would translate to: “But what if time is real, even if I can’t experience it?” Then check.
Can you find it?

No!

Can you ...

You believed a thought. Now look at any memory—any “past event” that seems totally real.

The past doesn’t seem real, but there is a belief that it - or some pattern - actually happened…

Its as if there is a question dopped ino the mind (or simply looking into a mind space and waiting). Some ...

When the thought arises:
“This is awakening.” “I saw through self.” “That felt significant.” “There was a shift.”
Stop and look again.

Did anything actually happen in DE?


Just checking that one out in direct experience! Ok - when the thought “that felt significant” arises its (just) a thought ...

Thanks Rali

This (yesterday as I send this) mornings looking began with a lot of thoughts and feelings – assumptions of time and a person in it – thoughts about allowing myself to get lost and wasting your time by distracting myself – the idea that I have to be in a certain state to see this - the ...

Hi and thanks Rali - gratitude for your generosity and time -

You say: The knowing it is happening isn’t different from the happening.
Thoughts are just sensations arising.
Catch it. It's not that it is wrong—it’s quite accurate! The danger is when a subtle watcher creeps back in through the body ...

Thanks Rali
Ive had the phrase “there is no you who ever saw or ever will” written on a piece of paper on my keyboard since you sent it, just as a reality check!
I found myself slightly nervous to open this email in case more fish were on the way 😊

the mind/thought hates stuff that “already knows ...

Not even a hook. Just a momentary thought and a sensation arising in the moment. Memory thoughts arising in the moment about that happening before ie thought "there is a tendancy" or "pattern" here

Thanks! There was a little eddy of feeling in response to your email, which is around some pride-like pattern – that was interesting and revealing! Something like “stop asking these impertinent questions” ha ha 😊There was a looking into “who reacted”? Nothing except sensations there! More on this ...

If I ask you what colour socks you are wearing right now you have two ways to answer:
1. You can think about it, trying to remember, or guessing what colour they are.
2. You can have a look at your socks and see what colour they ACTUALLY are!
You will agree that only by looking you could be 100 ...

Hi Rali - just checking in again in case you thought i wanted to sit longer with the last point I made. I'm good to carry on dialogue, when convenient to you.

Just following on from the previous insight with a small "i", a further development has just occurred in meditation. Really feeling the ...

Good morning!

You say you're afraid of not seeing it. But what exactly is it you're afraid of not seeing?
Then you say you're also afraid of seeing it.

What am I afraid of seeing or not seeing? Not seeing through the illusion of having a self. Or actually seeing through it.

Look closely. This ...