Can you look without believing that you already know what you’re seeing? Thanks for the above clarification Becca and I think I understand what you mean with this question.

I was going to try labeling today but I'm getting sidetracked with emotional stuff. I've heard about shadow work during ...

Then, stop watching the objects as labeled objects. Just look at the seeing itself. Observe the pure process of seeing. This is direct experience. i notice i can't find any gaps between direct experience and thought/label, it's as if i immediately categorise objects the moment i perceive them (even ...

Hi Becca,

The metaphor is really helpful! It makes sense.

Just to give you an update that I'm playing with the last exercise but I'm struggling a bit. It's like I'm unable to hold on to any sense of self, it's still there but when I turn to look it's very elusive and it feels almost like I've lost ...

Hello!

I’m not familiar with the Awakening Curriculum, but I have watched Pernille Lent Damore’s videos before! The way you describe it makes total sense to me and it’s actually really reassuring to hear :)

The only question is, right now, is this obviousness ever not there? It's not always ...

Was there a certain question you were looking into when the fear arose?

Go back into the fear if it is locatable. Tell me more about it. Describe it. Where is it located? it's no longer there, but it emerged twice recently. Once I was feeling frustrated with the process and went to meditate with ...

Hi Becca,

Some thoughts/questions -

After seeing through the illusion of self, does a sense of self still appear in experience? For example, do images, thoughts or bodily sensations associated with “me” still arise, but are recognised as not-self - or do they disappear altogether?

I keep feeling ...

What feels weird? Thoughts? Or is there a sensation associated with ‘feeling weird’? a sensation which I'm describing with thoughts.

What is ‘a felt sense of familiarity’?
it's a recurrent thought/s (image/s) and body sensation that come together and I identify with. I see clearly it's just a ...

Notice here half is written in present tense, half is off in the future. Future is always a thought. :) This made me laugh - I got a glimpse just by reading this, as in the rest is a story. I seem to see in glimpses sometimes: the body does something (not a me), thoughts aren't controlled by a me ...

Is going blank the absence of an answer or the answer? Ha, good point. This is making me realise I have an expectation that when I'm exploring in this way I'll have an aha moment that suddenly will shift a perception or will make me see things differently - an insight experience basically, like I ...

Is it possible for thoughts to take charge? No. Some thoughts preceed actions or feelings or other thoughts but they're not in charge.

Is there a 'you' who is a victim to this craving energy? No, it's just body sensations and thoughts.

I've been enquiring into who decides thoughts and while ...

Hello!

Thanks for this, I'm finding the questions and exercises very helpful, and I'm also feeling huge gratitude for your time and energy 🙏

What makes something called time or energy seem wasted? Thet story that something else should be happening? Yes. I know this to be true and I feel the ...

Hi Becca,

Following on my previous note about the penny drop moment after reading your sentence - this is what I think I realised:

There's no owner to know there's no self. The knowing has no ownership.

And there's no one to know there's no owner of experience.

The expectation of "knowing" in ...

Hi Becca,

Or is it more like there is no ownership of either knowing or not knowing anything at all… Reading this has caused like a penny drop moment, it resonated deeply and it has caused some sort of something. I'm letting it be/unfold and will come back to you once I have more clarity or I'm ...

Hi Becca,

You'll be glad to see I've finally seen there's a reply button! :D

Seeing is available in any moment. Keep double checking for doership or the sense of a self. Over time any doubt will fall away. I'll keep doing this, it feels like it can help loosen holdings.

The urgency of seeking ...

Hello Laura!

the sense of me with thoughts (and all sensory experience really) seems to come after the experience. It's like i claim it or appropriate it after it happens or when i pay attention to it

Very good. Now look directly at doership. Is that also claimed after the fact?
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