Part of me is losing interest, (...) Stay with me here…
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah!
I won't go :)

If there's no suffering, (...) what would I be without that?
What belief lies underneath it?


Well, there's something like: "If there's no suffering and I still suffer after recognizing that (+ I ...

Part of me is losing interest, but I find it's a convenient excuse and more sincerely there is being afraid.


Is there:
A Hearing
or
B Hearer + Hearing


Hearing is very encompassing.
What offers itself as a hearer can't hear itself.
Doesn't seem like there's a hearer. Surprisingly it really ...

What if I know no answers?
suppose it doesn't change anything. Hm.
This seems to be about expectations and assumptions mostly. Though I don't know what the big deal of ending suffering is about.

Stay exactly with what you noticed… face, cheeks, feet…
is there anything there except raw sensation ...

Who wants to enlighten?
I want to enlighten

who asks who wants to enlighten?
Becc does :D
Okay, sorry, low hanging fruit of a joke right there :'D

This one's a riddle.
I can find the thought here. And the thought about who's asking that question.

there's a bit of "me" interpretation / feeling ...

Tell me more about the sense that there is no observer. It is the truth, so how does it come?

cracking my head over this. I'm not sure it can be properly observed.
I wrote "sense that there is no observer" , because it's so hard to describe in hindsight weather there was no observer or the ...

Hello Becc, I hope you've been really well!

I have some status updates, written every now and then over the course of the recent days.
I wonder if sending this is just noise now, that some days have passed.
Okay.

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The head seems to want to anchor in categorizing things (experiences, feelings ...

I'm using your questions as entry points, but it wanders quickly into all sorts of directions. Valuable and welcome, but too fast to write down.
I think the best would be to take some time with it again.

Do you actually believe in time and control?

This direction was super interesting right now ...

is the amount of liberty I take in answering your questions okay?
I think I'm often not really addressing your point. Albeit taking care to use it as the starting point of looking it sometimes ends somewhere else when writing things down in our chat.

Thank you so much Becca,
good night :)

Tell me more about what is in the heart once all the rest of it has time to be felt.

The opening in the heart didn't really come back yet.
Though there is a bit of a sense that this feeling of "having to face something" might be about not actually having any escape from reality, really. There ...

Staying with that fear. Feels like it comes rushing in.
Body feels pleasantly empty. Even the legs now, wich at the same time are full of tension.


Oookay, need to get going, helping a friend mooooove.
So much move it move it.


Oh
There just came something wide open and fresh from the heart

Before the word “hug” what is the raw sensation underneath that which is interpreted as longing?

The entire body, down to the legs is felt.
There's a bit of a shocked/stunned sensation.

I will go into interpretation a bit, as a crutch.
It feels like having to face something. Or facing something ...

so, today it's really weird (and not weird at all. I don't know where that weirdness supposedly comes from).
It's a bit like I almost can't practice, yet practice all the time. Sometimes I feel like I forgot everything previously explored.
intellectually I can reason why that's good and stuff, but ...

I want to respond something, but it's all just thoughts that come.

Who is owning the center which feels pulled in different directions?

Dunno, but asking this things for weird in a pleasant way

I almost don't want to write it, but right now it felt like it's ripping me apart. Felt like getting torn in every direction at once

yeah