There's a few things here, so...

1) Take some time to just enjoy and let the realization settle, without pursuing more information. Good advice. My conditioned impulse is to keep seeking and asking, "What's next?"

2) Yes, I am very interested in the fetter model. There's a guy named Kevin ...

Actually, let me amend that question. What does one do to integrate this realization into life? What's been your experience? Is it something that happens automatically or what work is there to be done?

Wow Elad, that's great! Once again, thank you so much. This has been the culmination of so many things for me. I'm glad to have had such a kindhearted and thorough guide for this part of the journey. Thank you, my friend! If there's ever anything I can do for you, please let me know.

The biggest ...

Insight has arrived that mystical experiences and awakening experiences are not the same thing. They can co-arise but not necessarily. Pete has been hung up on this issue.

Hi Elad. My life here in Thailand is typically very quiet but the past week or so has been the exact opposite. Multiple old friends are in town, I've been working and there was a two day immersion I attended last weekend. I would've preferred it a bit quieter after this realization but it is what it ...

Hi Elad. I will get back to you soon with my answers to the questions you posted. My life has been busier than I would've liked for the past few days. I have had to go to work for nine hours a day and I've had other things happening. It is what it is!

This very significant realization has occurred ...

Thank you, Elad! I really want you to know how much I appreciate you helping me get to this realization. With your selfless service you've helped me to see in a few weeks what years of seeking couldn't. It's just a matter of asking the right questions. Thank you!!

Wow. This is a strange place to ...

I'm having that experience that I've learned to call grace. Where there's something that's been read about/videos watched/teachers listened to/thought about/etc... ad nauseam. Something that has been studied for years and I've thought, "I get it, I get it. So what?"

I've understood that the self ...

Given that the screens and observing awareness and so forth are all just concepts, please drop them here. Stay focused on: Is there anything that seems to be "the self"/me/I? And is it? Or is actually just spontaneous nature?


Is there anything that seems to be "the self"/me/I?


Yes, there are ...

Again, if by "robotic" we mean "in seamless accordance with nature, with the law of nature" then yes.

However, if by robotic we bring in conotations of something less alive, less mysterious, less valuable - this is all purely mental, purely resistance and negative interpretation.


Thank you for ...

Just had an interesting realization. Not the first time I've noticed this but… "Talking to myself is happening by itself/without self." That's what's happening quite often. There is a voice in my head that is speaking and clarifying things. Seeming to convince "myself" of my correctness in many ...

Dismal and nihilistic is a bit too strong. It just feels weird. :)

Thank you for your thorough reply, Elad.


Could it be that that what you erroneously believe is "feeling like you", just is "feeling intentional" ?


Yes. When attention is focused on some sort of task, especially if it's complex, the feeling like "I" am doing it arises. When routine actions ...

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As far as understanding intellectually, the penny has already dropped. Essentially, I get it. But there's a sense of frustration or that the intellectual understanding is inadequate. "There's a deeper awakening that's supposed to happen. Why aren't I 'falling ...

Thank you for reminding me of what I'm here for. There were a lot of strong feelings arising around what I wrote about, after the retreat. However, it probably would've been better to write it down privately instead of here.


Is it clear that there is no self/doer/controller, never was and never ...