I am currently on your around Japan so it’s been a little hard to find the dedicated time needed to settle and sit. I will be home in about 4 days.
What I am noticing is how much I really do believe myself to be a discreet packet of something. How strongly I identify with my body, and I think my ...

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There is no loci to this idea of self. While the edges of the body are firm my perspective is more … wafty. There is no location a single point of self no matter how hard I look. It’s like looking into an empty room. There is emptiness because there is a room, but there is nothing in the emptiness ...

What is being experienced now is sensations, thoughts although the thoughts also appear to be sensations. There is a quality of observation and much more subtle is the experience of a moment. Of time. And something related to moments that I can explain. Like a pulse.
There is an idea of reflection ...

And here we are at the core of things. I am aware of the relative and absolute teaching, and the 'middle way'. All very sensible and clear. But its an easy intellectual trap.
My immediate response to looking, is frustration. Generally I am pretty smart. I can understand concepts quickly. So its my ...

It is disconcerting to experience life in this way. there is an odd detachment. It makes me question my purpose (is there one, other than being IN this stream of existence?) and the nature of ethics.
Am I just another human living a human life, just as every other animal on this planet lives their ...

Apologies it seems the poster wrote quite a few days ago has gone missing. I will attempt it again tomorrow.

So I am hearing does ‘control’, and its versions, exist? I am inclined to thinking/feeling that spontaneity is the basic truth. In so much as it follows the condition path laid before it. ‘My’ participation in this is largely reflective, “i did this so I must have decided to do that”. There is an ...

Do you control thoughts - No. They come and go of their own accord, they have a mind of their own! I can focus and direct thoughts when I choose, which is not that frequent, and is itself in response to conditions.. so not really control.
Do you control movement - much like thoughts. My movement is ...

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Hello Elad
Presence as the innermost self - I dont think the presence is the innermost self. If I turn inward and examine the body gradually stripping away each input, and resist the very strong urge to identify with sensation, there is presence. But I tried the other direction - I expanded my ...

Hello Elad and thank you for taking this time to walk with me. I agree, if always have felt that a true spiritual life does not began until you are basically a happy, emotionally healthy human being. I have done many, many years of work to grow and emerge from my issues. Now that I feel i can say ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
We have a sense of self, but its not hat this is entirely untrue, but rather a deep misunderstanding of existence. We see boundaries and edges, that with closure inspection dissolve into process ...